Hey ! NO ONE will think you're a bad person in here ! It took me 4 times to get clean . We're here for you . What is your tapper plan ? How much were you taking per day ? Knowing all this helps all of us to get an insight into helping you . Lets get you started and we all are here to help ! Jimmy
Hi & Welcome,
I first have to say that taking Vicodin to get off of H is a bad idea and I do not suggest it to anyone.
Heroin is my drug of choice so I hear what you are saying. For me, I spent 20 years running with it and the last few I spent in rehab or jail. H took me to places I did not want to be and with people I did not want to be with. At, what I pray was my last rehab stint, I began my recovery. Just being clean from drugs was not recovery for me. I started to get to the root of my problems that caused me to use drugs most of my life. I went through therapy for many years and became active in the fellowships of NA & AA. I believe it was that aftercare that saved me.
I stopped using many times, but I could not STAY stopped. I am sure you know what I mean.
So your boyfriend is holding them while you taper? Good idea and I hope you are successful with that. So what will you do to stay clean after the physical withdrawal is over? And does your bf still have access to Oxy?
Have you been honest with your doctors about your addiction?
I have very few pills left and I flux from taking 10 to 15 a day to 4 or 5. I just need my well dose in the morning and I can make it through for the most part. Not so much a taper as it just doesn't work for me. I'm going to cut off tomarrow (again) before I run out this time so that if I totaly freek out then I will have a pill to take.
No my bf does not have access to oxy anymore. The frustraiting thing is I do. I have told my dr. my issue and to be honest he doesn't care. He's a writer, plain and simple. I need to control myself is what it comes down to.
That's just somthing that I almost can't do. How much of a cop out is that? I really don't know why I can't stop poppin pills whenever I have them. I really don't understand why I can't. Urgggg
Thank you for all the support!
Welcome... I know the feeling. If there are pain killers anywhere near me, I will take them. No question. I am on day 5 today and finally beginning to see a light. Keep posting on here, it is really helping me through this. Remember, there is absolutely no judgement on this forum. You can do this!
suboxins are worse then pains harder to kick