Support weaning off of MAJOR ammounts of meds

[luv2bmomjen]

10 Percs, 12 Vicoprofen, and 4 Soma a day.  Need I saw more.  By the end of this month I will be down to 7 Percs, NO Vicoprofen and 3 Soma.  I am scared to death and ready for any and all support to help this be easier.  I have three babies under 6 to care for.  Please help!!!

[freedom007]

ok...just know that I went the "under cover" route and wish I had just told my wife the entire truth.  By my last detox...she could have cared less (that was after about 10 relapses and countless underselling of how much I was doing)...and I had to do it alone.  Try to think of it from his point of view.  We addicts always think of ourselves...and think it is best...but more than not...whatever is opposite of what you think now, may be best.

Of course I do not know your hubby...so in the end, you need to do what's best given the circumstances.

There are WONDERFUL people here...truly amazing and they helped me tremendously during weaning, relapses, detox...and now recovery...

[ilovemyrose]

Just wanted to write as a fellow mom. I have a 3 year old baby girl and can't believe I let this happen. My dad died of an overdose 3 years ago and I can't imagine I've done this to myself. Be strong and we all will get through this...our babies need us!

Rachel

[luv2bmomjen]

Rachel,
Thank you so much for your post.  You brought tears to my eyes.  Not hard to do today I guess but yes we have to do it for the babies, they do need us.  I am so sorry for your situation.  So sorry you lost your dad.  I know exactly how you feel and I am sure in some strange way the meds made it easier to deal with even though you knew deap down that is was not the right thing to do.  It is so hard.  Take care and please keep in touch

[luv2bmomjen]

Well I am on day four and wow what a ride.  It is all good.  I feel better about what direction I am going in now.  I also feel a bit more alive than I have in a few years and most of all I am filled with regret for all the memories I feel like I have lost over the last year to three years.  It was really after I had my third baby that the pain was unbearable and I got into this cycle.  
So down now to 7 Percs, 6 Vicoprofen, 3 Soma a day.  So I went from 26 to 16 pills a day to start.  I am making it through by taking a lot of vitimans, B's, Cal-Mag-Zink, and Redbull helps for some reason.  Honestly outside of the habit of the pills and the pain that I have it has not been too bad so far.  
My plan is to cut by two more vicoprofen in the next couple days.  I may wait until Monday just to that I am not too sick on Easter with my kids.  My kids will be back in school then too.  At least two of the three.  Then I can nap in the afternoon if needed.  
I feel like I am at a safer level but definitly not a safe amount still.  When I journal at night I realize how much time I feel like I have lost and how high the meds still are!  All and all I think I can wean.  Not get too sick to take care of my kids.  Although does anyone know.  Will it get much worse when I start cutting completely?  Like when I cut the vicoprofen completely?

[luv2bmomjen]

UHHGGGGG having a hard time tonight again.  Why are nights so bad.  Oh yah cause the pills are gone.  Maybe I should have just gone cold turkey.  Really hard not to take them when I have 300 pills upstairs.  But I won't?  Took 8 Percs, 6 Vicaprofen, and 3 Soma today.  Can I make it?  Need some support!!!

[luv2bmomjen]

On day seven and it is just getting harder!!!  I will not give up, not that I have that choice anyway.  I am still at 7 Percs, 6 Vicoprofen, and 3 Soma.  Today my anxiety was so bad that I was screaming at my children.  I hate myself for that.  I am a bit better this afternoon but my husband left town today and will be gone till Wednesday.  I go into surgery on Thursday which is NOT going to help things.  I need as much support as I can get here today.  Please help!