TRAM HELP. WITHDRAWAL HELP

[chaddavis333]

I have a few post on here, so please forgive me that I keep writing, but I have no other outlet. I am begging all who read this to please give me a response. Let me tell you my story. 8 months ago I got injured at work. My doc gave me vicodin. I told him after 2 months and a lenghty hospital stay, that I felt like I was getting addicted to them. He switched me to tramadol 6 a day. This made me feel great and I thought the more the better. Once I found I could buy them online, it was even better. I ordered and ordered and before I knew it, I was taking 18-20 a day for the last 3 weeks before it all came crashing down. I told my wife everything and my pastor too. He thought I should go and get checked in at a Detox center. All that was last Sunday, Nov. 14th. On that day I took 13. They told me I could not detox, but just go home and do it there, becuase since it was not a narcotic, I would be uncomfortable but wouldn't die. Monday, the next day, I took 8 with a lot of fatigue and anxiety. Tuesday I did 6 with even more anxiety but I could not sleep. Today, I took 2 at 6:30 am and was anxious all day. I thought I would quit today, but by 3:30 on the same day I could not sit still and I took 2 more. I felt a little more relaxed and took a 8-10 minute nap. Now here I am crying, which has been non stop, begging someone for help. I have taken Lexapro for a while now, so I thought coming off this would not be bad. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!! I have 2 small children and besides my injury I am a normal 36 year old male. I am very much involved in my church. I think God because I did not die from taking so many. I did call my doc and he made me transfer all my stuff over to him from my detox visit, and has not yet called me back?? Will someone please tell me what to do here? When will I feel normal again. Should I just quit and suffer non stop for a few days??  What do I do. Please everyone Respond. I can't take this.

update  my doctor told me today that i am done. i must quit cold turkey. i can not have anymore. please tell me how to quit this without the anxiety!!
I also was curious that since I was going into this taking an antidepresant. will my withdrawals be as long and as bad? ..

[Storme]

Hi Chad! I just read all of your posts and am so glad you are making it through the toughest days. I took Tramadol after Vicodin too and the withdrawals are nasty but You know now that you can do it! Keep strong in your faith not only in God but also in yourself. Part of our addiction stems from not loving ourselves very much at the time and we need to remember what terrific people we truly are. God knows it, now you must remember that too!

I look forward to reading more about your progress and your new lease on life!

Teresa~

[chaddavis333]

Thanks avisg for the advice. What about the energy? I mean will I ever get back to what it was before the tramadeath??  I also have thought about looking into to some na. I never really thought of myself as an addict, but looking back on this and other stuff I have done in my life, there is defiently something there. It's like the snake in the grass waiting for me to bite and give me its posion. Btw, you rock. You are one of the factors that God used to get me through this. Thank you for all your help and following the Lord. I hope that I can help others like you did me. I feel like I am on day 10 instead of 5. BYE BYE STUPID PILLS, HELLO LIFE.

[chaddavis333]

Back from Wal-Mart, you know the one so big it has its own zip code, lol. Walked around no problems, really. I get this feeling sometimes for about 10 minutes that feels kinda of like when you first get the flu. Most of the time I feel upbeat. Anyone know how long it will take to get my energy level back???

[avisg]

Chad,
you are doing great you sound sooooo much better .It will get better day by day now .Now next thing to do is look into aftercare can your pastor counsel you or aa/na meetings.Keep on trucking u are doing great..

[chaddavis333]

I am also on day 5, and I woke up wide eyed. It usually takes me at least 15 minutes or so to get up, but this morning my eyes just popped open at 7:15. I tried and tried to go back to sleep until about 7:45 when my 2 year old boy was screaming from his crib "Daddy". He knows I am home, so he wants me to come and get him. Yeah, I felt the doom and gloom and the panicy and the electricity a little in the morning too. I got scared and started thinking man here we go again going backwards. I got up and said screw it, I am going to clean the garage. Sounds real fun, huh? Anything to take my mind off it. It went away too after a couple of hours and I have drank my daily quota of diet pepsi already, so the caffine isn't even bothering me. I am not a big fan, especially when I am off work, to go out and start cleaning things, but I couldn't stand sitting on the same couch I have all week. It started to bring back memories, plus my wife said it smelled bad from sweating like a stuck pig all week. lol  I remeber at the height of day 2 screaming and telling Jesus how sorry I was, and begging Him to take me away from all this. He led me through it. I can tell by your words you too belive, so all I can say is to totally trust in Him and pray. When you feel that way, just ask Him to give you just enough strength to get through the next hour. Eventually, you won't need to that anymore. Instead just thank Him for his healing grace.  I will also tell you that I have been taking 10mg of Lexapro for a while, which I think helped. Anyway, God let it help. You have got to really want and mean it and tell Him you trust in Him for everything. It will change your life.

[GeorgiaGirl1022]

Sorry again for the typos. And btw... Reading your posts have helped me so so much!! Thank you and God bless