TRAM HELP. WITHDRAWAL HELP

[chaddavis333]

I have a few post on here, so please forgive me that I keep writing, but I have no other outlet. I am begging all who read this to please give me a response. Let me tell you my story. 8 months ago I got injured at work. My doc gave me vicodin. I told him after 2 months and a lenghty hospital stay, that I felt like I was getting addicted to them. He switched me to tramadol 6 a day. This made me feel great and I thought the more the better. Once I found I could buy them online, it was even better. I ordered and ordered and before I knew it, I was taking 18-20 a day for the last 3 weeks before it all came crashing down. I told my wife everything and my pastor too. He thought I should go and get checked in at a Detox center. All that was last Sunday, Nov. 14th. On that day I took 13. They told me I could not detox, but just go home and do it there, becuase since it was not a narcotic, I would be uncomfortable but wouldn't die. Monday, the next day, I took 8 with a lot of fatigue and anxiety. Tuesday I did 6 with even more anxiety but I could not sleep. Today, I took 2 at 6:30 am and was anxious all day. I thought I would quit today, but by 3:30 on the same day I could not sit still and I took 2 more. I felt a little more relaxed and took a 8-10 minute nap. Now here I am crying, which has been non stop, begging someone for help. I have taken Lexapro for a while now, so I thought coming off this would not be bad. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!! I have 2 small children and besides my injury I am a normal 36 year old male. I am very much involved in my church. I think God because I did not die from taking so many. I did call my doc and he made me transfer all my stuff over to him from my detox visit, and has not yet called me back?? Will someone please tell me what to do here? When will I feel normal again. Should I just quit and suffer non stop for a few days??  What do I do. Please everyone Respond. I can't take this.

update  my doctor told me today that i am done. i must quit cold turkey. i can not have anymore. please tell me how to quit this without the anxiety!!
I also was curious that since I was going into this taking an antidepresant. will my withdrawals be as long and as bad? ..

[chaddavis333]

Thank you. Yeah today has been better than yesterday already. I just can not wait for the anxiety to end It's in my arms and wont go away. I know I am impatient, but I just want it to be done. Praise God for my progress so far.

[GeorgiaGirl1022]

Hey Chad!
I've never taken tram but I'm on day 4 from hydro so I'm kinda in the same boat. It's weird but I'll be sitting there fine and dandy then all of a sudden it comes over me like a wave and it's like a since of well.. Dread. But I just walk around, step outside for a few, sit in the little sun that's shining and in a few it passes. I woke up in the night like that several tomes too. I have wd before and to be honest for me it takes a couple weeks for that part to go away. Be everyday it happens less and a liitle farther apart until one day it's just gone! Just keep praying and when the panic hits move around.  It helps me. Good luck friend! Your ALMOST there. It's a short time that feels like it won't end but it does. I promise. Hang in there

[chaddavis333]

it has been almost 96  hours since my last pill. I feel ok kinda. Lots different than I did 2 or three days ago. I just have to learn patients. I still feel like crying a lot. It is a catch 22, if I don't drink any caffine, I am so tired and overwhelmed feeling that I cant even move, but I cant sleep. I don't know if this is from something elese like not sleeping or something. If I do drink cafffine I have a little more energy and feel as close to normal as I have in days, but a short time later i get the electric impulse feelings and anxiety. I know you guys' that have been responded lives' don't revolve around me, but would some tell me when I am going to be ok again?? I know there is no magic formula,  but I am glad that I feel the way I do by day 4. Thank God my boss is cool enough to understand. One good thing is I do have long moments of clarity with no anxiety or depression or anything, almost like mystelf. Then boom out of nowhere, here it comes..... Please God let this end. I am glad what I have gleened from these days about the Lord. I have also put a new sense of love and respect for my wife. She does not understand anything about this, but she is doing the best she can. You can tell when I have good moments by my writings and how clear my thoughtsand spelling are. If not, bad spelling and grammar and randomness. Praise God for His mercy....

[chaddavis333]

Update: I finally got a little sleep, but the demons woke me up. This has happened to me before with a vicodin incident a few years back. I get that overwhelming feeling in my chest and arms like electricity running through them. Mornings are worse. Anyone know how long this last?

[chaddavis333]

Thanks to all who commented. The positvie encouragment really helped. As far as the sleep. Lets just say I took some Nyquill at 10 and woke up at 2 and have been wide awake since. Oh well, I am going to study my Sunday School lesson that I am teaching. I still get a touc h of anxiety. Nothing like before. Its more like I feel it in my forearms down to my fingers. Also, where in the heck did the sneezing come from? This expericence has really made me think. I never considered my self an addict However, I can remeber to back whenn I got hurt and thinking... alright I get some Vicodin. I can remeber the stuff I did to party with when I was younger. Wow, maybe I am a touch of an addict. At least now I know, but don't addicts deserve sleep too?  To the person above this comment, prayer is the best support? It is the best, you are right. I and many others on here could tell you that you are going to feel this or that, but God has the power to shut it off or on. I remeber laying flat on my face on day 2 begging Him and screaming help me Jesus, please. One thing to remeber... He is holding you the whole time. The other thing that helped me was also getting out. I paced back and forthh in our small house going crazy. Force yourself to do something, if not you will watch every minute on the clock. Also, the thing that really kept me grounded was this: the only bad, stupid, lazy, inconsiderate abuser, is the one who really doesn't want to quit. Bring on day 4, I have the Lord on my side.....

[123quit]

Hi everyone... I accidently came across this forum and I'm so glad I did. I've been reading through a lot of the posts for an hour or so and this seems like a great place for me to be. I am an opiate user.... about 120 to 200mg of opana per day. I am so ready to quit. I don't have the option of tapering off so tomorrow will be day 1 of cold turkey for me. I have been through withdrawals before and know very well the hell it is. I am here for encouragment and any advice you guys may be able to give me. I am so dreading tomorrow and the days ahead. But I am more so tired of living my life around a pill. Prayer is the best support I have.