Happiness if a fight

[janet19]

I have this overwhelming feeling of being stuck in the middle of using and not using. I stay in that circle and sometimes it is hard to find happiness. Is it because I have lived there for so long? I thought the happiness would find its way back into my life when using was gone. But I find I have to fight for that small amount of happiness that I have. I do not actually feel depressed, but some things are not right and I just wonder if others feel like this when using is over.

[lostsoul30]

hi ,
  Its takes a hot minute for the happiness , peace , to return it seems. I have no motivation nor do i got any energy at all! All i wanna do is sleep. But as they say it does get better! Keep strong!

[Allsmiles35]

I too feel the same way!! I even feel lost at times. I have no energy at all!! It's been 18 days clean for me now!!! How long has it been for u? I wish u the best of luck!!!

[kimbo546]

Yup... I feel ya girl. Time is your friend in this case. When I feel like that that I either get to a meeting or turn up the music and dance. Just remember you dont ever have to use again. As addicts we always tend to want instant gratification, we want things right now. Are you involved in any type of aftercare? Keep fighting girl...Sending you positive thoughts. Kim

[Lindsay_T]

I've found that when I go to bed at night and know that I've done my best that one day, then I don't necessarily feel "happy" but I am at peace. I think that's all we can do is our best that one day. Or that one moment. Or that one task or that one conversation.
Chasing happiness and being mindful of it's presence is kind of a set up.

[dominosarah]

Using is only a symptom of this addiction.  This is all takes time.  We have to do alot of soul searching but happiness does come back and it is better than ever.       sara