I think most of us here have said that, just a couple pills or just a couple lines won't hurt. I repeated that cycle for years thinking after a few days clean i had control but, the fact is, every relapse became so much tougher to get back up and I fell deeper into addiction. I know you know you can't just take 2, but your addiction will fight you and tell you it's ok, it's not ok.
Your doing so good this time and reaching out for help and support which is so important, dont' set yourself up for a relapse. Can you talk to your family, so that pills are not around, that is an enormous trigger. Keep posting and keep reading, there is a lot of support here. Congrats on 4 days now.
Thank you Gizzy!! SO MANY TIMES, I have fallen right into that trap!! You'd think I would know better by now, which I do! But the craving will always be there, and it is strong. I've relapsed sooo many times thinking I can just take a couple, or that I can control it!! But you're right, when I start taking them again I just fall deeper and deeper and I take more and more!
But what is different this time is this website! I didn't have any support last time, so for that, I am thankful! It really helps to talk to people who understand what I'm going through!!
Thanks Gizzy.
can you 'take us with you'? do you have internet at the family's house over the holidays?
I dont' have many words of wisdom for you right now...I just hope and pray that you will stay strong...either way, we're all here for you!
(((hugs)))
Thanks! Yes, I can take you all with me : ) I get these messages on my phone and my parents have internet access. So I'll be here.
((((hugs back))))
sweet! lucky you.
I will not be here from Dec 16th til at least the 23rd ... I'm heading out on vacation!
Have a great week everyone!
: )
I hope you have a wonderful vacation!!
That will be alot of temptation for you over the holiday. I would really try and stay away from the friends if you can. If you cant be honest with them and tell them you are clean now and hopefully they will respect that. If they dont they really arent your friends. Does your family know about your addiction?
I am glad your family knows. Hopefully the pills will be out of sight. Stay close to this site during the holidays. sara
I will definately be relying on this site!!
I think everytime I feel the urge to get some, I'll come on here and say HELP!!! : )
If you can make it back home with no set backs, think of how GRE8 and PROUD you will be, and I promise that will be a way better feeling than those "2 pills" will make you feel. Good luck and have a wonderful,safe and sober christmas.
Holidays are usually a struggle but if you are dedicated to your recovery you will make it thru. You are in control of you now......not your addiction. sara
Thank you Dadof5 and sara !! You are so right!! <3
Thanks for ur advise on my question i kno i my heart that she will not stop unless she wants to and all that goes along with it. My cuz says chirstmas is one of his BIGGEST triggers along with beign at his mothers house. Stay strong you CAN do this!!
Orion~you have given some of the best advice to others here on this forum. You are such a wonderful person. I know that you will get through this. We are all here for you and if you get the craving just drop us a line. Good luck with the Holidays. Keep posting
Thank you more_fiend! Please add me as a friend? I'm on my cellphone right now and it won't let me add friends from here.
I will definately be on here when I am tempted to get 'one more'. Its a trap, I know but the craving is so strong. I've relapsed too many times to count tho. Thank you for the encouraging words! You made my day : )
I keep telling myself to follow my own advice!
I tell myself the same thing. It is so easy to help others but how to help ourselves is the difficult part!!
hi there...congrats on 4 days...you are over the worst part but the mental stuff hits and really makes us want to cave...a good saying i found here on med help that keeps me strong is...1 pill is too many...1000 never enough....it s so true...the more we have the more we take....so what will 2 pills do...nothing....we have to get through the triggers that want to make us think it be okay to take 1 or 2....it just leads to more...stay strong...you CAN do it....maria :)
Thank you Maria! I really appreciate that. You are so right! When I am at my family's house, I'm gonna come on this page full of posts to me and I will reread it over and over to remind me when I am blinded by this addiction!
Please add me as a friend, if you want to. I'm writing this from my cellphone and it won't let me add friends.
Thanks again friend.
ok..i sure will.....and keep posting your feelings or maybe keep your own personal journal where you can write down how you are feeling...what maybe triggers you to crave. it helped me to keep my own personal book...i can read about yesterday or when ever. just a thought...living life without pills is so good now....just keep positive..deep breaths...whatever you need to do...adding you as a friend now...if you need anything/help please send me a note...maria
If your friends offer you anything,tell them you brought your own and proceed to take your own vitaminc,or vitamin b12,or vitamin b6.You can probably get just as high with those pills(or pretend to) and watch everyone else make a fool of themselves.Your high will be overcoming the temptation.
here here to that...thats a great idea...maria
just remember ur clean time is precious..no friend or good time is worth losing it..hang on to it tight..do not let it go