tapering day #3

[Coze11]

Hi, I do not feel strong at all about this, but Ive done it for 2 days and will just take it an hour at a time to do it today.  I would feel so proud to be able to cut it low then stop.  But honestly, I dont have a lot of faith in myself.  In any case, Im gonna do it today, then hour by hour do it tomorrow.  After reading the posts, I am clear that I will fail if I do CT.  So unless I am forced to, which without pills it would come to that, then Ill stay in my taper mode.  2 days of 3 3/4 pills, less than half my usual habit.  Im tired, dont like how my head feels, but I want to do this!  Thank you for reading...I think being able to "talk" about this helps.  THis is the only place I seem to be willing to be honest about using. Its interesting...even tho the only semi pleasant feeling i get is the first dose, I just got into taking them all day, in the hopes that Id get that good feeling again.  And I never did, but I kept doin it.  Even as I was doin it, I asked myself why i was doin it when I knew there would be no desired result.  My insanity from addiction!

[notordinary]

Hi and welcome.
I can relate to the insanity. Almost a decade of using.
I also did a taper, from 80-100mg a day to 20-30.
I'm 38 days clean today. And i feel wonderful.
Slow and steady on your taper. Let your body be your guide.
We will help you get through this.
Keep posting let us know how you are doing.

[Missshawn]

I taper  as well.. I so determine to quit,instead of the 2 week taer plan,I was done in 6 days.. We are here for u..you can do this... Get your mind set right..don't set in the house..get out and move around

[SmilingBright]

From what  hearing slow and steady wins the race!!  I'm doing a slow taper and have been since jan 1!   Take it one day at a time!!  

U can do this!!  I'm getting more and more postive that I will get through this and u can to!!  Listen to the people on here.  They know what they r talkin about!!!  Will be praying for ya!!!;)

[kme17]

You have to dig deep and find the WANT to get this done. Its a process but when you have conquerd evey level then you will be on a natural high that isnt ne thing like what the pills offer

[weaver71]

Insanity, yep that's the same dis ease I have, but I have hope. Drugs cannot create a feeling that the body can't produce on its own. The reason drugs work, at first, is they are the same chemicals our bodies make naturally. Pills stopped working for me a long time ago, so if I want to feel good, I have to work for it. A runner doesn't get runners' high until he has done some running. I realized that pills where like buying energy on credit, but there was a lot of interest when I had to pay up. When I'm having a rough day now, I adapt my program to do something as a lay away plan. When I've earned it, it feels real good. You are making the biggest investment of a lifetime. I pray your God blesses each minute today.

[Coze11]

Hello all,
I made it through another day successfully at 2 1/2.  i am really glad about it and Ill keep it going hour by hour tomorrow.  I feel pretty un-fogged!  But I know this is insidious....and can change in a second.  
thanks again!