Help Needed

[Addicted2112]

I need help in a really bad way;

Background,

I have had two surgerys on my C6-C7. The first was four years ago, it didn't work so I had to have a second surgery less than two years ago. I became addicted to Hydor-Codine durning that time and I actually went in to detox about a year and a half ago. I kicked the addiction and I was doing fine. Unfortunatly, in Febuary a year after I got off of the Hydro-Codine I started to have sever pain again in my arm and neck. I went to my Dr. And he referred me to a pain nanagment specialist. He found that I have a herniated disk at my C5 - C6 now, I ended up back on Hydro-Codine and after several months I was abusing the drug again. To make the situation even worse I was then proscribed Opana, which wasn't bad, as it didn't give me the euphoria that Codine does. I was taking it as proscribed and as most or you know it started to not relieve my pain after a while. At this point I was not taking Codine at all I was only taking the Opana. Here is where it went bad in a really terrible way. I started to snort the Opana, I knew I was making a mistake but I'm an addict and my pain was really worsening. I did this for a month or two with no real problem. I went on vacation with my family and durning the vacation, for me to have the energy to be as active as was expected of me, I increased my use of the drug. I was totally out of contol. I got back from vacation and I had gotten the flu and I decided to quit snorting all together. I did it, I felt like hell but I made it a week without abusing the drug. A week later I feel off and started again. This was two months ago and since then I have just felt terrible physically and mentally. I want to get off the drugs for good and I'm committed to do it.

Here is my question; I'm would like to stop cold turkey but I'm not sure I have the will power to do it on my own. I will be out of Opana in ten (10) days if taken as directed. I have been snorting more than was directed to take orally.

1) is there some suggestions on how to go cold turkey, what to do to ease the symptoms?
2) if it is better to tapper off, considering I only have ten (10) days supply left. Should I start taking the meds orally or at least supplement some of my snorting with oral use.

Today I only have snorted 30 mg. and took one 15 mg orally, with my prosctibed dosage orally being 45 mg.. I don't know if this is the right direction but I do know that I have reduced my total intake by half today. I feel terrible but I know that I'm going to feel bad. I don't want to check myself into a detox because I can't afford to lose my job and I feel confident I will since I have already done this once before. That is the problem, for me to be motivated to work I must take the drug and for me to keep my job and family long term I must quite for good. I hope someone out there can relate to my situation and give me some direction. I need help and I need it really badly. Your questions, comments and or concerns will be greatly appreciated.

Very Sincerely
Addicted

[turbosuzyq]

While reading your story I could hear myself and my fiance;s rolled together. I'm no stranger to pain and being medicated at this time. I would like to share my story but I don't want side tracked for my purpose of responding. If someone needs treated for pain and feels they are addicted then it seems to me they already have a list of strikes against them. I recently went a few months without med and the craving never left me. I only had 7 really sick days. My quality of life never improved, then it become worse. I've made the decision to stay on medication no matter what the long term affects may be. Is;nt this the reason we have pain management clinics to begin with?  It sounds to me that your doc isn't doing his job to control your pain in an effective manor.  I would think it obvious as your addiction grew he would see the signs.. Have they offered you the  SPINAL STIMULATION TRIAL?This would be so nice for you to have a fighting chance. In your situation I would feel I lost the battle before beginning, People who do not know pain can never understand the way we teeter and try to balance all that is involved an what goes with it. I give in to it but I'm 50 with kids raised now and I'd just prefer to fight in live then the tabo issues that go with pain management. So where is the line between being medically treated and addiction. They told me right off I was a lifer and would be addicted. Would you still snort them if you could decrease the pain more then 50% Are you snorting to get the buzz or in so much pain you will do anyting to

[Addicted2112]

Need Advise,

Sunday morning I did my last Opana. Monday meet with my new doctor. Here is the plan:

Suboxson

Monday - I really don't know how much he gave me, as I was in full blow W/D

Wednesday - 6 mg.

Friday - 6 mg.

Sunday - 4 mg

Tuesday - 4 mg

Don't know after that but it is a thirty day program. I'm not feeling great but not dying. Let me know your thoughts. Questions or concerns. I just need to know if I need to jump ship now and go to plan B?

Thank You So Very Much
2112

[Addicted2112]

Thank You,

I am going to try and stick with what I'm doing now through the weekend. I had a dr at my detox last time, Unfortunatly I don't remember his name. I'm going to see if I can find him again, I think I'm going to need help because I only have ten (10) days worth of meds. I will run out and then there is no chance of tapering. I really don't know what to do, I have put myself in a really bad situation. I have all the supliments that are suggested but I have to get clean in the next few days or I will be out of Opana. Let me know what you think.

Thanks Again

[weaver71]

I would definitely taper and use them orally. Snorting makes them work faster and leave your body faster. I can't give specific taper plans on this forum, but the slower the better. Talk to your doctor about a plan, if you have one. You want the oxymophone to leave your body at an even slow rate. The Thomas Recipe and Amino Acid Protocol at the bottom right of this page help a lot with symptoms as well as brain chemistry healing. Immodium really helps, it's an opiate derivative that doesn't cross the blood brain barrier. Also, AA/NA or some form of aftercare gives accountability, motivation, and a sense of service to other addicts. Exercise as much as possible through the whole process, at least walk around. I did sauna's and swam a lot. That seemed to help with the aches. Melatonin is a good natural sleep aid for when the insomnia hits you. That is a good place to start. Do your research, while you have your head somewhat clear, form a plan and stick to it. Write it down and tell a friend, a spouse, post here, just tell someone what your plan is. Sometimes I would want to change my plan, but promised my wife I would talk to her first. I was feeling desperate and she said, "Why don't you just follow through with something for a change." That hit me and I stuck with it, and am very glad I did. Good luck and keep us posted.

[littlebit667]

I do not want your post to be missed and posting to bump it.  You will get help just be patient and stick around.  Some nights are slower than others.  Yes you can do this and with this board it helps a lot.  It helped me so much.