We are all the same

[jerrip]

Back in the 50's when I was a teenager, I started drugs.  By the time I was 17 I was totally hooked.  I was very pretty, so the dealers just used to give them to me.  I lived with one who used to smuggle them in from Mexico. Thousands at a time.  We kept a shoebox in the closet filled with uppers downers the whoe thing.  Used to hake a handfi=ul and then smoke pyote and eat mushrooms  thru a water pipe filled with wine......Well then I got married kicked and was good for about 20 years.  I developed fibromyalgia, a back injury, and diabetes has givem me neuropathy in my feet .  I have arthritis in both knees and  a whole list of feel sorry for me boo hoos.  I started on the pain killers about 25 years ago.....(Yes it adds up I will be 66 in Oct...and have 14 grand children and 3 great grandchildren.)  The doctors started giving me stronger and stronger pills because I wore them out.  I still have not been high for 20 years....you build up a huge tolerance over the years......I am writing this for you younger folk.....what I would have given to know where I would be today when I started on the pain pills 25 years ago.  This is not my first detox, but the pain is unimaginable...and the doctors keep putting me back on it.  If you take drugs for pleasure, and are injured or get a terrible disease there will be nothing to help you.  When I am in the hospital             ( several times a year for my heart)and they give me an IV for pain it only takes the top off....never gets rid of it.  2or 3 mgs dilaudid.....now remember it is gram for gram 8times stronger than moraphine and they have given me up to 5 or 6 grams IV....still no pain releif, and NEVER a high.....so enough of the boo hoo....just wanted to let you know what it will be like when you get old.....I love you all, you have no idea how you have helped and blessed me.  By the way it is day 10 for me ....I am still shaking inside and out, and I hurt like anything....but that is not from Wd......Jerri from around Atlanta....used to live near San Diego

[jerrip]

Yep we really do need to "shake this out together"  LOL   thanks for your messages    Love Jerrri

[SFgirll853]

Jerri thank you for ur story.  I am on day 11 and still shaking.  lets shake this out together!  

[Mandapanda17]

thanks for your story :) I've only been taking and abusing painkillers for about 3-4 years. Makes me feel better to hear your story... I need to quit this tapering crud and go CT. I'm such a wussy...

[avik7]

they told me i have fibrom and deg back disease, slipped and bulging disk in the lumbar area and im only f*cking 23...just turned 23 eleven days ago! thats how many days ive been clean! what a good bday present! and i was hooked on drugs at the age of 14 thats when they started to give me the lortab and so on. then i was intro'd to coke which was my best friend for 4 yrs. not to mention all the other drugs i did. so your totally right...we may be different in ways, but were all the same.....

[jerrip]

Well I wrote you a really long detailed information on it, and then somhow lost it...so being lazy and my hands shaking so badly I will make it short.  Fibromyalgia is classified as a type of arthritis. I was diagnosed about 15 years ago. It is an inflamation in the muscles, and ligaments all over your body.    Love  Jerri

[broknbck]

What is this fibromyaligi? I heard it something they tell you , you have, because they do not know what is wrong. Anyway you use to live in San Deigo? That is like perfect climate for all those aliments. I moved to Arizona and it has helped my back pain and arthritis very, very much.

Is it real high humidity where you live?