Loratab withdrawal symptoms and length

[Kaystrying]

I want to quit so bad!!! And more than anything. But I made it to day 2 (today) and it was so bad I went and got some. I need to know how long this will be going on and what the symptoms are for the most part. I mean I know I am feeling but I want to know I am not alone with these things and that they aren't going to last forever. How long is the physical stuff going to last? I cannot sleep. When I fall asleep, I sleep for a few minutes then wake up needing t move because I am uncomfortable. I am so tired and can't get any sleep. I am so cranky. And the damn CRYING?! I cry about everything or nothing. Then there are the sweats, the cold chills, the muscle aches, my SKIN HURTS. And I cannot make myself stop thinking about it. My heart keeps racing and I can't breath because I cannot make my mind stop. I keep trying to do stuff to make myself be busy even though I don't want to get out of bed (and some days can't get out of bed). Been trying to read books so that way I am distracting myself but it isn't working enough I guess. I got the shakes so bad today that I spilled my drink twice and then I beat myself up (mentally) over it. It almost feels like I hate myself for doing them and I hate myself when I am not.
I take full responsibility for the fact I did this to myself, but that doesn't ease anything really does it? Maybe I just needed to vent but I also need to know how long this last and really what all the symptoms are! If anyone can help me I thank you immensely. I want to save my life.

[Kaystrying]

Well I am almost at the end of June and NO closer to clean. I make it a few days then "they (which can be the dealers [literally] or the pills [mentally]" and I slide backwards. I am playing, just never winning. Who the h&ll am I to have let it get the best of me? Coming from a family full of addicts, I swore to never be this person. Yet, here I am, the exact person I never wanted to be. I want to get out, do sh*t, be active, in the hopes that it will make it easier, but the 103 temps won't let me leave the house. I apologize sincerely to all the people I ever judged for being addicts. I didn't know. But I know now...damn do I ever know. Who am I to judge?! No one. A simple person, no better than anyone else. And not making it anywhere fast. Going backwards, going forward, they feel the same. I get some, hate myself. Don't get some, hate myself. Get some, feel guilty. Don't get some, feel like I am gonna die.
My boyfriend threw it up in my face when the water bill didn't get paid that I had the money but spent it on  pills instead. Which was like a knife in the back. He doesn't work and hasn't paid a bill in 5 YEARS of our relationship but it is my fault (which it was) but it wasn't helpful for him to say that either. Made me HATE myself more. Which makes me want to go get some in order to feel "better" or "normal," which goes back to the same cycle again. he has no IDEA what I am going through and can't or doesn't want to help. He can say "I am here for you. I am gonna help you." But saying "You are doing a good job" on the days I don't get any because I can't afford them isn't helpful. Trying to joke around and "play" isn't helping when I am cranky. And telling him that only causes him to get pouty and withdrawn from me. I know he is not sure what to do and I don't know how to tell him to help. Sh*t! I can't help myself and have to worry about him, his feelings, keep telling him "IT IS NOT ABOUT YOU!!!" I have become a b*tch that even I don't like. I feel like this is going to rip us apart, when we have made it through ex-husbands, ex-wives, cheating, lying, no-jobs, feeling like he is using me (which he was and still may be) and a ton of other stuff, but this is pulling us apart because as much as he wants to "be there" and do things to help, he can't this time. The worse part is because I am going through this, I am not sure I even care. Maybe I just want to be ALONE. Completely, utterly, totally alone! Which is not good for me either.
And now I have no friends (no talking about you Nikole and Lee....thank you for your help!!!) here. I have managed to alienate everyone. I stay to myself, sit in my house withdrawing from the entire world. The depression is making me a person no one wants to be around. I have become self-absorbed it seems, only it isn't me I am absorbed in. It is the stupid, ugly, nasty pills!
Then, while on vacation in FL I find that I have cysts on my bladder and they are wanting to do surgery on it. What do they give you? Pain meds! Great. Not gonna help me get clean. But can't tell them no either considering I am not so good with dealing with pain.
D@mn, I am lonely....and depressed. I am disgusted with myself. Ok enough complaining for a while. Gonna watch t.v. or something and go back to laying in bed!

[Kaystrying]

Back from FL and it is harder now that the kids are gone for the next 8 weeks. I thought it would be easier but now I am depressed becasue I miss them so much. I ma trying to stop, taper, CT, whatever I can do to get clean but the truth is the more I try it seems like the less will power I have. I get to feel like a failure and I know I am not. There is just so much more to it then I originally expected. UGH!!!! Thank you everyone (especially Lee) for the support that you have given me. My goal is to try to write as much as possible because I do believe talking will help.

[quitinoxys]

Are you trying to taper off? If you are, you should give your pills to someone to hold so you can stick to your plan. As far as a doctor turning you in, they can't due to the HIPPA regs. If they do you can turn them in the will get fined from 10,000-250,000. Also if your kids were taken (which I highly doubt) due to the doc you could sue him and they all know this. Most doctors are compassionate when you come clean to them. I was where you are now last week and feel much better @ Day 8. Hang in there and I will pray that God give you the strength to beat this.

[Kaystrying]

Ok so I am in FL and it is worse. I have no energy and I am a lil bit miserable. I haven't quit CT but I am trying ot reduce which doesn't seem like the best thing either. Thanks for the support and I will keep informed. Ugh just Ugh is what today brings. But at least I am not alone!

[Kaystrying]

I am leaving to go to FL next week for 10 days and am hopeful that while detoxing there is going to be easier. Don't get me wrong, I have no false hope that it will be "easy" but I think it will be easier than trying to in a town where I am sitting at home, depressed, and my dealers texting me about some. I didn't think you sounded illiterate at all. Don't throw when you live in a glass house, right? Plus, I know how you feel about the sweating and making jokes when possible. The depression is overwhelming and, being a bi-polar as well, has hit me SUPER-HARD. Thank you for offering an ear because I need it. I feel alone going through this because no one else around me is addicted or they don't care about being sober. But I want this, for me, for my children, for my sanity! Thank you for listening. I am sure it sounds like the same ole story as so many... but it feels different because it is me. I am sure everyone feels that way, and I am not discounting anyone's feelings. I am not the only one, and I am sure it isn't the worst. It just feels like it! LOL! Please no one feel offended by me saying that.

[IBKleen]

Hi Kay,

I have never heard of a doctor turning a patient in for being honest. The children are normally taken away because the parents are negligent and someone calls against them. This is not your case. Please, try and find a doctor so you can get help.

And if you want your son to go to meetings so he can understand the disease, here is a schedule of Alateen meetings which will help him:

http://www.al-anon.alateen.org/meetings/meeting.html

Keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

[Kaystrying]

I looked into going to the NA meeting yesterday, but the man that supplies me was there. He says he goes every day "For the free coffee" and I thought that would be worse for me. I do not need to be sitting in a meeting and have him trying to sell to me. He is not serious about getting clean, I think he just goes to socialize. This is a small town with that being the only meetings. At that they are at 7p.m. which I feel is worse because the "need" hits in the morning and that is when I need to be going. I know it sounds like excuses, and maybe it is. I don't know what to do about it.

[Kaystrying]

I do not have a DR to talk to. I am a single parent, and a very good one. (I am not just saying that, I really am.) I worry by talking to a Dr that it will put my kids in jeopardy and I have NO family. They are worse addicts then me. I have talked to my teen about what is happening but my baby is 8 and wouldn't understand. She still thinks mommy is perfect, but has "bad days." I look at them and all I want to do is get sober and stay that way. They deserve so much better than this. My son had a hard time when I talked to him, because they explain addiction in school to them as a crackhead walking the street, not a mom who owns her own business and cooks dinner every night. I am trying to find a program like alanon for him so he know and can understand it isn't his fault. I tell him it isn't but I am not sure what he is thinking.
Anywways, do you think I could get a Dr to help without the threat?
Thanks
Kay

[bellaandme]

Oh yea I'm on a cell phone and just reread my post I sound illiterate but I'm not sorry for the misspelling run on sentences and punctuation my english professor would be so disappointed lol keep ya head up and post these people here are wonderful    

[bellaandme]

I'm sorry ur feeling this way I am in the same boat I have been doing vics for about 5 years and the wds are hell my boyfriend has no idea and that is so hard I came in the house today sweating my butt off and I say to him I'm sweating like a who@re in church (no pun intended)and it made me giggle I knw its not a very nice thing to say but being I have cried all day whatever it takes to make me laugh...then I was thinking damn I coulda changed that to an addict but like meee lol anyhoo I went through wds at christmas in disney world and I tell u want it didn't faze me of course I couldn't sleep even tho I walked 11miles a day in all of the parks no lie I wore a podimeter (sp) but it wasn't nearly as bad when I did it at home now I'm doing it at home and feel like I'm dying so there is truth to keeping busy and they won't be as bad but beings I'm not working its not working that well for me wish I had money to go back to disney to detox lol oh wwll I'm trying to learn my lesson for the last time good luck to you keep posting and if u need someone to talk to mesg me cause hey I'm up too swiming the english channel lol nikole

[xstevex]

Well the good thing is itll be over and you can get yourself healthy....its rough I know , we all know believe me but it seems like your commited to getting clean and thats the thing thats gonna help you , and yes keep posting cause talking about it seems to help Ive found....best of luck....keep us posted

xs

[lsakds]

I keep getting on this site looking for advice and wind up giving the best advice I can... Today is day 22 off them Lortabs for me. I was taking them for 5 years and slowly worked up to 200 mgs a day. Detoxing myself only lasted 2 days too. The second day is the worse (for me). All them symptoms are real, and they take hold of your brain and make you use again. Its really a disease that takes controle of both the brain and the body. I spend every evening in AA, Listening to all them stories, and every one has the same problem as me. That problem is addiction. So my best advice is... please see a doctor. I dont know the amount of opiate you are taking. But he/she will know what to give you to make you the most comfortable with the withdrawls so you dont have the physical pull to the Lortab.
I wish you well... Dont kick your self for failing either. Its so very hard. Just try again.

Sandy

[LeaAnn807]

Hi!  I think you probably know the answer to your questions.  You are not alone.  Many of us on here have been thru this MANY times.  Over and over for me on just about every drug known to man.  

Here's the deal.  You will be irritable, fatigued, have insomnia, diarrhea, headache, nausea, sweating, chills etc etc etc!  It will last a few days.  After a week the physical stuff will be mainly over, and you will need aftercare of some sort, so you don't have to keep going thru this.  The insomnia and low energy go on longer than anything else.  RLS tends to last a bit too for most people.  

Do you have a doc you can talk with about this?  Good luck.  Keep posting!