hey james,
correction you are over 205 days clean. awesome job my friend. i hope and pray that all is well in sunny scotland. off drugs life is so much clearer,brighter,hopeful,happy,
on drugs lies,deceit. ,destruction,,misery,turmoil,death.
you made the right choice , you are living proof it can be done.
keep the faith, keep fighting the fight
sending hugs and love
debbie
Congrats James on over 205 days clean!
Bottom took many forms for me. Each one I thought would be my last wasn't, there was always an excuse to keep using and going further down. I wanted to die every time I came down, and I didn't see a way out. I blew a hole through my septum and then, for some reason that silly little thing made me look in the mirror and realize what I had become. 19 years of using and something that stupid scared me straight. Go figure. Well, whatever works!
Honestly, it was that and one other thing. I was finally getting something out of life and feared losing it. Scared I was going to screw it up like I did so many times before. It was easier to continue on a downward spiral when there was nothing to lose.