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AWOL! Help please
I haven't been on here in a few days. I went 10 days and then slipped up. I've taken about 45mgs of hydrocodone since Wednesday night. I don't know if it was because of real pain or because I'm weak. Maybe both I guess. Either way I'm really ashamed and feel terrible about myself. How far have I set myself back? Any feedback is needed.
Just wanted to offer my support as well! Relapse is an unfortunate reality for addicts, hon. While it stinks, and while you feel mad at yourself and disappointed, you can turn that into a learning experience, another bump in the road. If there were no bumps in the road, this forum wouldn't be full of people, right?
Brush yourself off, get back on that horse, and start thinking anout what it is you need to do differently. Maybe you didn't cut off your sources? Maybe you need to reach out to some peple in your life, both for support and for accountability? When something didn't work right the first time, you regroup, rethink, replan, and start again.
You CAN do this. We're all here for you!!
Brush yourself off, get back on that horse, and start thinking anout what it is you need to do differently. Maybe you didn't cut off your sources? Maybe you need to reach out to some peple in your life, both for support and for accountability? When something didn't work right the first time, you regroup, rethink, replan, and start again.
You CAN do this. We're all here for you!!
Thank you all.....again. For some reason I always sabatage my own success. Just got a new job and what do I do? I take a pill. Then I feel bad about taking a pill so I take another pill. I was just very discouraged with this detox. The last time there was this jubilation about being clean. This time I just felt empty inside. I couldn't shake the lethargy. I'm going to start over. I will try again. I will succeed. Or I will die trying.....
Hey! So glad to see you back. Like 'Toothfaerie' above says, 'don't beat yourself up'. You're not 'weak' -- you're an addict. There's a difference. Just like a narcoleptic or diabetic or Bipolar person is not 'weak'. This kind of thinking/feeling leads us backwards. Just pick yourself up, dust yourself off, turn yourself around and keep heading in your original direction.
Ask yourself: 'What did I learn this time?'. 'What triggered me? And how can I remain vigilant enough so I can recognize it the next time it comes around? I promise you it will. These are the real tests. This kind of knowledge is one of the pieces that will keep us clean. Without this, we walk down the same street each time, knowing there's a hole but somehow not believing that the same course of action/thought/habit will bring us to the same place. Therein lies 'magical' thinking. In a word madness. So, we have to keep up our guard at all times when that 'Black Dog' whispers in our ear. Know it for what it is -- a lie, a trick. Stare it down. It may be powerful and sustained but just sit with it and it will ebb. It's all about learning to sit in our own skins without reaching for something. Difficult but true -- a learning curve, for sure.
You can do this. We've all fallen -- some of us over and over and over (that would be me!) Again, so glad you posted and were candid -- that speaks volumes -- It's important for us to be 'witnessed' this way. Wishing you Strength, Determination & Clarity.
Ask yourself: 'What did I learn this time?'. 'What triggered me? And how can I remain vigilant enough so I can recognize it the next time it comes around? I promise you it will. These are the real tests. This kind of knowledge is one of the pieces that will keep us clean. Without this, we walk down the same street each time, knowing there's a hole but somehow not believing that the same course of action/thought/habit will bring us to the same place. Therein lies 'magical' thinking. In a word madness. So, we have to keep up our guard at all times when that 'Black Dog' whispers in our ear. Know it for what it is -- a lie, a trick. Stare it down. It may be powerful and sustained but just sit with it and it will ebb. It's all about learning to sit in our own skins without reaching for something. Difficult but true -- a learning curve, for sure.
You can do this. We've all fallen -- some of us over and over and over (that would be me!) Again, so glad you posted and were candid -- that speaks volumes -- It's important for us to be 'witnessed' this way. Wishing you Strength, Determination & Clarity.
Like the above posts said. Don't let this get u down. Dust yourself off and get back up!! U can do this!!!!! I too have done the same thing and you can't beat yourself up.
Some people have recovery buddies on here. Maybe that would help. And give yourself credit for the clean days. That's success. Xoxo
Hi again Bear..That one is a hard one for me to say..I do know that if you think about it then you can phyc yourself into them..Try to keep busy and do not think about what happen at all..Just re-direct your thinking every time your mind thinks about Oh-your going to feel this or that..I have seen many Blessing from people who used the Power of Positive Thinking OK.Just keep pushing for Recovery..You will be fine..Lets go ride some bikes in the Sun today..Ha!!! Hang in..
Did I set myself back as far as physical wd's? Or has the mental part just become powerful enough to precipitate physical wd's?
hey don't beat yourself up....it's happens sometimes and you just move forward....you can't change what happened couple days ago so just worry about today...and try to figure out what triggered you so you can stay away from it next time....anyway....don't feel too bad about it just move on....you can do it.....
Oh come on now do not beat yourself up..You just take it as a lesson..I bet that little old Pleasure tape just played the I feel good, just one more..Right? But see you caught it in time and that is good..We have to be very careful not to Walk in the Coals because we will get Burned..OK So just keep on Stepping up the Steps and do not fall back!!! It kind of hurts the soul from the Fall!!! Pick your self up and wipe off the dirt and just go forward again..
Bless You. I know you need a big Bear Hug..
Bless You. I know you need a big Bear Hug..
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