Woke up motivated

[SFgirll853]

OK here I am AGAIN.  The third time in a month but I am ready to get off this little yellow b*%$ches!  Like many of us here I use my chronic pain as an excuse to pop pills.  Sometimes the excuse is to help with pain, sometimes with my mood, sometimes just with daily life.  Well,  I went CT once and fast taper once from 80mg Norco a day and stayed clean for 4 days each time.  Then the back pain became an excuse and I filled the RX. I read a members journal earlier today whos story seemed similar and whos husband offered to hold and dispense her meds just like mine.  It inspired me again.  I am over it ... I just want OFF these!  I am starting my taper plan today.  I can do this!!  You guys are all so awesome.  I know in my heart I would never have the strength to do this without this forum.  Please send positive energy my way as I have a Dr. appt this week too and am sure to be weak.  Here I gooooooooooooooooo................  ;-)

[worried878]

great that you have a plan...sounds like u r motivated and ready to be free!

[SFgirll853]

Ive got my taper plan written down and in effect!  Day one here we go. Thank you for all of the support!!!

[worried878]

Those doctor appt's can be tough...I had called one of mine..the one who gave me the bulk of my pills..but i did not call the one who gave me 30 every 4 months...well i had my neck procedure and did not turn down the script..took them for 4 days and felt myself slipping and flushed the rest...no WDs but sooooo close to falling into that crud again....I need to tell him not to give them to me as well,,,next appt is not til august...i will just ice it next time..the pain relief i got was not worth the mental anguish it caused me

[SFgirll853]

Thanks for the motivation.  You can too!  Getting there sucks but I keep reading all of the great "other side" stories and I want to be there too!!!

[Dieing2Live]

you know i woke up today after a pretty bad relapse the last 2 days, feeling more ready and convinced than ever before. must be something in the air today! congrats you seem like you have a good mind-set right now. talk to the doctor about it, that way you wont be able to give in to a Rx.you CAN and you WILL do this.