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alternate pain treatment
I have been in horrible pain since a hysterectomy 4 years ago. I have tried EVERYTHING with no relief. During this time I have been on narcotics. They have been the only thing that have given me any relief. I now am feeling that these pills are taking over my life. I have lost interest in everything but the pills. I am looking into inpatient detox as I know I can not do it myself. I am really afraid of what the pain might be like without them and what to do about the pain. What if I detox and can not handle the pain? I am terrified but I am also terrified to continue taking these pills.
Hey Angie! Just read your whole thread here.....you are AMAZING! You sound like you already have the 3 biggies of HOW it works...down pat...
H=honesty...O=openmindedness...W=willingness. That truly IS HOW it works and you have a great plan.
I can share about my inpatient experience with you (some) lol if I can get my memory to work....it was a VERY long time ago.....I took a 30 day leave of absence from work. Many rehab places have a list of things you will really NEED to bring and also many have things they do NOT want you to bring. Their web site may give you that info (the one I went to has a list provided on their web site) or a phone call to them, perhaps, could help you with those details.
The two words I would share with you to keep in mind as you pack: COMFORT....and SIMPLICITY...Take clothes that you are totally comfortable in.. I also took my pillow (ha) and other creature comforts with me. The policies and guidelines will differ for each place, but one thing is for sure....this time will MAJORLY bless you. I understand what you are saying about "never working on you". Also, about feeling your lifeline to the world being cut off without your phone or computer....BUT.....that will end up being a HUGE blessing for you I promise! I was basically "forced" to look withn...and work ONLY on me by not having contact with the outside world and all it's multiple distractions.. Focusing on YOU and your RECOVERY will change your life forever. It's one of the BEST presents you will ever give yourself!
I have to tell you something funny......I was SO scared when I went.....and I was ALSO scared when I left. lol Let me explain... I was scared for TOTALLY different reasons....when I went, of course, I didn't know what to expect and I was unsure about everything in my life at that time.... and when it was time to go home, I wasn't sure I wanted to leave that "safe",
"protected", "LOVING" environment.
I was told "take what you like, Connie, and let the rest go." I DID do that and having that attitude helped me A LOT. I learned SO much and met so many wonderful people. There was a routine and I was kept very busy working on myself. I became SO comfortable while I was there. I hadn't seen or known the clean and sober ME for a VERY long time. I, of course, hadn't developed any confidence that I could go "back out in the world" and handle all the stress, situations, relationships, work, etc. that fill our daily lives. But I faithfully went to meetings, made clean and sober friends, went to camp outs, dances, retreats, etc. with others just like me that were determined to live their lives clean and sober. It was SO freeing and grand!
I want to encourage you to take as much time as you possibly can off from work. If we don't have time to be sick.....we must MAKE time to get well.
And 21 days is not all that long in the big scheme of things.
I sure hope you will continue to post and share your journey....I'll be here rootin for you as each day passes~
H=honesty...O=openmindedness...W=willingness. That truly IS HOW it works and you have a great plan.
I can share about my inpatient experience with you (some) lol if I can get my memory to work....it was a VERY long time ago.....I took a 30 day leave of absence from work. Many rehab places have a list of things you will really NEED to bring and also many have things they do NOT want you to bring. Their web site may give you that info (the one I went to has a list provided on their web site) or a phone call to them, perhaps, could help you with those details.
The two words I would share with you to keep in mind as you pack: COMFORT....and SIMPLICITY...Take clothes that you are totally comfortable in.. I also took my pillow (ha) and other creature comforts with me. The policies and guidelines will differ for each place, but one thing is for sure....this time will MAJORLY bless you. I understand what you are saying about "never working on you". Also, about feeling your lifeline to the world being cut off without your phone or computer....BUT.....that will end up being a HUGE blessing for you I promise! I was basically "forced" to look withn...and work ONLY on me by not having contact with the outside world and all it's multiple distractions.. Focusing on YOU and your RECOVERY will change your life forever. It's one of the BEST presents you will ever give yourself!
I have to tell you something funny......I was SO scared when I went.....and I was ALSO scared when I left. lol Let me explain... I was scared for TOTALLY different reasons....when I went, of course, I didn't know what to expect and I was unsure about everything in my life at that time.... and when it was time to go home, I wasn't sure I wanted to leave that "safe",
"protected", "LOVING" environment.
I was told "take what you like, Connie, and let the rest go." I DID do that and having that attitude helped me A LOT. I learned SO much and met so many wonderful people. There was a routine and I was kept very busy working on myself. I became SO comfortable while I was there. I hadn't seen or known the clean and sober ME for a VERY long time. I, of course, hadn't developed any confidence that I could go "back out in the world" and handle all the stress, situations, relationships, work, etc. that fill our daily lives. But I faithfully went to meetings, made clean and sober friends, went to camp outs, dances, retreats, etc. with others just like me that were determined to live their lives clean and sober. It was SO freeing and grand!
I want to encourage you to take as much time as you possibly can off from work. If we don't have time to be sick.....we must MAKE time to get well.
And 21 days is not all that long in the big scheme of things.
I sure hope you will continue to post and share your journey....I'll be here rootin for you as each day passes~
Hi ang..Good Job..You will want to take very comfortable clothes..Like lounge around clothes..If it is warm take shorts and such..Take a light Jacket..My place was on the lake so we got to go out on the Boat..They usually take away the things with alcohol in them..They give it all back..Get non alcohol mouth wash and hair spays and things like that..I got a pre-paid card and put money on it..I did not know they were going to hold it..They did go shopping for me when I needed something..Like candy or makeup..cigs..Just go by how the Weather is..and be very comfortable..maybe a few nice things in case you go out to the movies..I left my Jewelry at home..I did not have to leave my wedding ring..Missed it..Wish you the Best..It will be just fine..I did learn alot in there..I wish you well on this Journey..You can do it.I seen alot of people who were feeling just great in 3-4 days...Even came in feeling good...OK Do Not worry..You will like it..
SOOOO EXCITED for you Ang! This plan sounds like one that you'll be happy with. I am bumping this up in hopes others who have done inpatient can help guide you some and ease any fears. I so commend you for jumping in with both feet and getting your life uprighted. It will be the best thing you've ever done. xx
I found a place where I can inpatient detox and then live in an off campus house for 2 to 3 weeks. They recommend at least three weeks but I have to work with my job. Anyone with this experience? Do you usually bring everything you need for both with you? I am a little afraid to be gone for so long but yet excited to have all this time to work on me which I have never had. I think it is part of the reason I got into this situation. Never time to work on me. Always running to work and helping everyone else. No distractions will feel weird. It has never been all about me. How different! I am starting to get scared and it is hard to get it all together before going. Aiming to go next Wed. Mostly will miss not having a phone or my computer. My lifeline to the world. Would love to hear from anyone who has gone this route.
Morning Ang, You hit the nail on the head about wanting to laugh again. That was an ah hah moment for me. I had lost all joy in my life from being on these pills. It is really cool when you belly laugh for the first time post detox. Anyway, I sent you a pm. Go to your home page and click on "in box" , or messages. I also sent you a note. Your pain needs to be addressed for sure and the only way to fully gage it is by getting the drugs out of your system. Hope today goes well and you get some answers re: rehab. Don't let the stories on here scare you, once you get a plan your anxiety will be relieved. Right now the fear is the unknown. Keep posting. Oh, hopefully others will be able to give you some insight about using sub's for detox.
selfinduced....how can we talk privately? I don't know how this works.
The other posts have given more to think about and it is causing me more anxiety!!!! ahhh.... The reason I like the idea of inpatient is that you are monitored and you just get off in a matter of days. The end. Then I see what I have to deal with and I do have a good doctor willing to help me out post detox. As he said, you might find you really don't need them and they are not helping you like you thought. Otherwise he is willing to try other meds and even mild narcotics on a low level if necessary. Hard to know right now as nerve pain in itself is a very tricky and frustrating and debilitating pain. Never in my life had I felt something like that. I could not function. At least the pills allowed me relief enough to keep my job. Ibuprofen etc... does not even touch this and neither did any other scripts. At this point though I just don't know where I'm at. Suboxene is something they say they use to detox you. Is that a good thing? It will be expensive to go but my husband would have difficulty watching me in pain and he would give me the meds. I know him. I might have to kill him and no one wants that....ha. I told him he would have to get rid of all my meds while I'm gone so there is no access...period. The weird thing is I look forward to not having these meds run my life and be able to do things without thinking about them and to actually have a drink. I haven't had a drink in four years and I always loved to have a good time now and then. I want to really laugh and really want to be with the people I love. I have some pain still anyway on the pills so maybe it won't increase too much and I can learn to live with it. That's my hope. Thank you all. You have no idea how much this validates my thoughts and feelings. It takes someone who has walked in your shoes to understand. You are all wonderful people. : )
The other posts have given more to think about and it is causing me more anxiety!!!! ahhh.... The reason I like the idea of inpatient is that you are monitored and you just get off in a matter of days. The end. Then I see what I have to deal with and I do have a good doctor willing to help me out post detox. As he said, you might find you really don't need them and they are not helping you like you thought. Otherwise he is willing to try other meds and even mild narcotics on a low level if necessary. Hard to know right now as nerve pain in itself is a very tricky and frustrating and debilitating pain. Never in my life had I felt something like that. I could not function. At least the pills allowed me relief enough to keep my job. Ibuprofen etc... does not even touch this and neither did any other scripts. At this point though I just don't know where I'm at. Suboxene is something they say they use to detox you. Is that a good thing? It will be expensive to go but my husband would have difficulty watching me in pain and he would give me the meds. I know him. I might have to kill him and no one wants that....ha. I told him he would have to get rid of all my meds while I'm gone so there is no access...period. The weird thing is I look forward to not having these meds run my life and be able to do things without thinking about them and to actually have a drink. I haven't had a drink in four years and I always loved to have a good time now and then. I want to really laugh and really want to be with the people I love. I have some pain still anyway on the pills so maybe it won't increase too much and I can learn to live with it. That's my hope. Thank you all. You have no idea how much this validates my thoughts and feelings. It takes someone who has walked in your shoes to understand. You are all wonderful people. : )
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