I just wanted to check on you to make sure you are doing ok. If you need to talk I am always here. Like you have not noticed. I am off work for a bit so always on computer. :)
What a great gift to give yourself on your birthday, you being clean!!
Hope you got some sleep.......sara
Cheesy, sorry for your friend... we don't realised how much we are fighting for our lives...make this choice to stay clean everyday because it is hard and we must commit ourselves 100 %...do whatever you need to stay clean, please.... it is hard as first, we don't want to think that we have to make changes for life....but we were making bad changes on our lives while on active addiction... everyone was for the worst.. Now it is the other way, every change is for the best, choose always what it is best for you each day at a time... it gets easier wiith time and you will feel better... hope you sleep :)
thank you. its been really tough tonight to deal with this. i was already an emotional wreck because of my withdrawls.. but this just puts the icing on the cake. he was only 18. im about to turn 21 in october and im excited to spend my birthday sober. i just cant believe he is gone. i am glad that i am making a positive choice to stay clean because i dont want to end up like that. and i was surely heading down that path. life is so fragile, and no one is promised tomorrow. im going to try and get some sleep. but its probably not going to happen :(
I am sorry you are hurting. I understand. I lost my best friend to Vicodin a few years ago and I think that is when I went down hill with abusing pain medications to numb my feelings. Remember that it is a good thing to feel pain. It means you are alive and sober. Stay sober for yourself and do it for your friend. We are all here for you.
OMG!! Terrible!!! I'm so sorry!!! Heroin is harder than oxy I assume, couldn't imagine his struggle, but I'm sure it's very similar...
Keep your head up!!! Don't give in to numb anything!!! Know you don't want your family to go thru the loss of you!!!
Your sobriety is everything right now, so go day by day, hour by hour if you need to. Take your mind off of it, a movie, bath, or sometimes an old fashioned cry!!!
If you see our blog, we are 4 days into it and getting better, but today's hard. I can't stand the insomnia, and achey-legs....but I know I want away from these and that's our #1 priority!!
I am so sorry about the loss of your friend. This is the hard cruel reality of addiction. Usually once a person relapses after being clean for awhile they go back to the same dosage and that is usually what does them in. As for you, i know you are in shock and hurting. Try and look at this as something you dont want to happen to you as it could. The best thing we can do when faced with this tragedy is to continue on in our own recovery and educate ourselves and others about addiction. I know how you feel as i said goodbye to a very warm kind loving man a couple months ago who died from his addiction. Using isnt the answer as there is nothing that can numb these feelings up. We face these sad times head on now. Hugs to you sara
but thats the brutal reality of this....it leads to institutions jails and death...dont let his death go in vein....let it remind you of just how fragile life really is and let it reinforce what your tring to do here and thats get clean...feeling is a wonderful thing but there are sad parts to life
and from here on you have to except the blessings as well as the pitfalls hang in there and remember using ant an option you have to be strong now...you can do this
pray for your friend...I hope he new the love of Jesus b/4 he died
good luck and God bless......Gnarly