being tested

[Dane74]

I just cant seem to catch a freaking break i swear.  So on Sunday my ankle swell up like a balloon and hurt like hell, i waited it out to see if it would get better, and of course it did not, so today i went to the Orthopedic to get my ankle checked out, that hurts like hell, nope not broke, and the ligaments are all good.  Of course i cant have something normal as there is nothing normal about me.  I have allot of fluid in the bursa sac that is causing all the pain, they are worried about infection, i am non weight bearing and in a boot, and have to see a foot and ankle specialist on Monday.  So here i sit with a RX of norco!!!!!!!  Who will win this fight?  Does it ever end?  I am just so dam pissed at life right now i cant even began to tell you.  As soon as i think my leg will be ok something goes wrong, waiting on the blood results as they were ordered stat, and if all the fluid is still there they have to drain it out.  So i guess this is a test to see if i can win this battle, of course i already failed the first test and got the RX filled, but i also called the shrink and said i need to see here ASAP.  i am just so frustrated and sick of the constant fighting to be well.

[vicki595]

You're doomed because that's what you've convinced yourself of...but, hey, I'm not your psychiatrist...LMAO!  

Anyway, hang in there and thank your stars that I'm not there!! I could get you good and comfortable WITHOUT regret!

[Dane74]

mamabear,  I am an all or nothing type of gal...LMAO.  i am already having issues with the darn Ativan, and its only been 4 weeks, if i take just one opiate i am doomed:(    I am non weight bearing without the boot, and with the boot i can walk on it.  Right now i am on the couch with it elevated and ice, not that it does anything, hopefully  i can get the MRI tomorrow and see what it is.  thank you for always supporting me.  XOOX

[ImDONENoMore]

Honey you are WAY too hard on yourself.  I don't know why you do that, but please - you HAVE to take care of YOU.  And if that means taking a pain pill to treat this horrible pain, than that's what it means.  This doesn't have to be the end of your struggle toward getting clean.  My fear is that if you don't treat this pain, it's going to get worse and then taking those meds will become out of your control again.  Your husband is there to support you and help you through this.  Let him, okay?

Please, give yourself the credit you deserve.  Taking the meds (as prescribed or even less than prescribed) doesn't equal failure.  I think that's where your "disconnect" lies.  These are two entirely different situations.  

[vicki595]

I'm so sorry and I keep saying it but I really am...

You know where I stand on these pain issues LOL! And I know your feelings on taking anything...so...it really bites!   But, do you have to be so one way?All or nothing on the subject?   I just hate that you're hurting but only you know what you can handle...

You're not walking on this are you?

Love you....

[Nursey7]

I am sorry to here you are hurting so much. I have no doubt with your positive attitude you will overcome this!! Just take care of yourself; spoil yourself with food that makes you happy, get a massage, a good book ;-)
If you really can't stand the pain though get help because untreated pain can cause more harm than good. Just have someone else give it to you. I will be praying for relief for you

[Dane74]

well, i went to the the doc today for the ankle, i have to now go get an MRI he thinks my tendon is torn:(  OMG, i hurt to walk even in the air cast and at rest it just throbs and throbs.  I am just so darn mad at the world right now, sorry to be such a downer, i am just having a pity party for myself, hey its better than having a pill party.......Nothing is working, ice, Aleve, rest, nothing, and you know what, i honestly don't think a dam pill would work either.