brain part is killing me

[febninthgirl]

I would rather take the body withdrawals for weeks then have to deal with the mental part. I don't want to see the reality of my life right now. I hate my husband right now. He has flipped my life upside down
I am very educated person in medical field but shake this. I want my life to fat forward. A year from now. I feel like I'm going crazy

[gnarly_1]

hey girlee...I was hoping things where getting better for you but it sounds like your still
up to your neck in it....take one day at a time...get rid of any pills you got left and cancel the refills...you dont want to go back to that dark place ..your son needs
you more then ever right now...you need to be there for him..all he knows is daddy
is not there ....I wish I even new what to say to try to comfort you in your time of need
but this is biger then me.....you need to go to god with this one and pull close to him
he has much grace to give...and I think hes all you got left at this point...its going to be ok.....it might not seam like it today but it will get better...a wise man once said that if it isent going to mater in 5 yrs then its no big deal...im not trying to minimize your problems...only trying to put them in prospective....5yrs from now you will be standing on your own 2 feet and looking back on this as a bad memory YOU WILL GET THEW IT....your a strong girl now you just got to take it one day at a time
get thew today tomorrow will come soon enough and you can deal with it when it gets here...staying sober is going to try your perseverance but you are stronger then you think...just hang in there and stay clean...dont let your husbands fall turn into your fall...you can make it without him..it just going to take some adjusting...
your in my prayers nightly...good luck and god bless..your friend Mark  

[febninthgirl]

Hey buddy thanks for the kind words.  I'm sorry you may no my story.  A week after I lost my baby bro to an over dose I caught my husband with another women. That's why I'm not doing so well

[Dadof5kids1973]

also febnin, you have more on your mind right now than most of us do with the lose of your brother. You are a very strong person even wanting to stop right now. I can tell you that you are a positive to me. CRY,CRY,CRY you have every right to. Its ok to be sad. You are dealing with alot, and you know that in time it will get better. I am praying for you-Ron

[Dadof5kids1973]

I said the same thing to my wife yesterday, that I wish I could fast foward my life 6 months from now so I can be happy again. I hate my children knowing why I lay on the couch all day and do nothing. I told my kids why hopeing it will stick with them if they are ever or shall I say when they are offered opiates weather its from their peers or from a DR. We have to just get it in our heads that even though time is crawling now that soon it will be all over. The more we relapse the longer its gonna take. It has to happen 1 day so why lose anymore time. why waist those painful days from wds knowing we will eventually have to do it.