christmas day roll call...

[jeffclowns]

hi this is jeff i have 53 wonderful days free of vicodin and 21 days off of marijuana....shout out your clean days everybody even if it is 1 ,no one judges here..and let's all have a wonderful Christmas day without the stinking pills controlling our lives...thank you and god bless everyone on the medhelp addiction forum and lets all have a great and safe and drug free holiday season.....HO HO HO............MERRY CHRISTMAS.......and to anyone who doesn't celebrate Christmas ....HAPPY HOLIDAYS....

[dominosarah]

That a girl narla!!

[10356]

Whoo Hoo Narla Welcome back :)

[narla]

OK 485 days clean alcohol and codeine,

Taking no more than 60mg of codeine a day,making sure I stay well within what's prescribed.

[10356]

I'm Proud of you for being so Honest with your Dr's and not abusing them. Can you say why you are not counting your clean time from addiction ? is it because you are not suffering ?  none of us deserve nor do we have to suffer. It sounds to me like you have done the responsible things to insure yourself from active addiction and old patterns. Addiction is so personal as we all start down it for reasons but if we have dealt with the reasons and are secure we are being true. You can do no more ya know..

[10356]

Yes it was hard I have journals about it.. Physical wd does not really scare me as I have been thru it so many times. not fun to say the least.. I was worried about my emotional health for sure.. I started Heroin at 16 over emotional pain.. it took decades until I had gone to a Psychiatrist to work thru this. I think seeing him put me in a much better place but the fear inside was very real. my family was hurting over my addictions I was hurting Heck my dogs were even unhappy.. this did not come about this time. I was Healthier in mind.. I had my moments for sure as one specific journal details but I fought thru with support from here my friends here my family and feel back on top. Nobody wants to face this but we must continue on in our lives and I believe we are the obstetrical to how difficult we make it.. You will get thru this period in your life and come out on Top. I sure hope your surgery goes smoothly. and I Hope and Pray with time your pain levels drop off from your leg and ankle shatter..

[WantToBeNormalAgain]

Hi Lesa,
Wow, our stories are similar health-wise..! I have had 6 surgeries on my ankle/leg after shattering both bones, but my addiction didn't creep up until about 4 years after that. I got ahold of a vicodin for the first time, which I had thought I was allergic to, and who knows why, but tried a half of an ES one...I've been through quite a bit since that dumb decision. But again, I've had to take narcotics when there really wasn't another choice.  I mean there's always a choice, but with the horribly high level of pain I was/am in, it's a constant struggle. I can proudly say that all my docs know of my addiction and I haven't abused narcotics in nearly a year..but my internal struggle is a big one lately, and I'm trying to head all advice here and follow my own as well but I'm just really struggling. I'm trying everything I can as an alternate to surgery, and to no avail. Can I ask you: was it terribly hard to 'have' to go back on them, as it looks like I will, and then go back off? Not the physical wds, but the emotional aspect of it? Thanks so much for sharing your story with me and well wishes :) Alison