crack

[irishguy74]

Just had a major relapse on crack after 3 yrs, need help

[Ann2497]

What about family in the area?  I am sorry that you feel so lonely.  That must be hard.  I don't get a chance to feel lonely.  My son complains whenever I leave the room and yells at me to come back into the room.  Sometimes I wish he would just give me a break.  I guess I shouldn't complain it could be worse.  

Do you have friends you could call?  What about your sponsor?  Turning on the TV helps even if you aren't watching it.   Having a voice in the background is comforting.

[irishguy74]

I am trying to but it is not easy you know? I don't know who i can trust, and it is not like that is entirely nessacary but it's just hard to meet new people. Up untill my relapse my job and my realationship was my life. Now i just work and go to meetings. But i know i would rather be lonely and sober than using and suicidal

[Ann2497]

Have you made any friends at AA?

[irishguy74]

Still sober lil rabbit, but sad and lonely

[irishguy74]

Plus i was just to complacent, and everything was going just too "good"

[irishguy74]

I basicly stopped addressing my addictions by not going to meetings and i stopped calling my sponser

[passerby888]

Scarytrip is right, alcohol is definitely a trigger. Do you know what triggered the relapse?

[irishguy74]

No doubt! That is great advice

[scarytrip]

Relapse is part of recovery and recovery is a LIFETIME.  

Three years of sobriety is great recovery time.  What happened that pushed you over?  

Stay away from triggers especially alcohol.  

[irishguy74]

Went to two meetings today, was rained out at work. This older guy came into the meeting tonight who had 16 years and went back out this weekend. Then there was another guy who it was his first meeting, i know i am in the right place. But why is it that someone can be supportive of the person who has one month or two years but not be supportive of the guy who has a couple years and slips up? I just don't get it. Maybe i'm not supposed to?

[Ann2497]

That sounds great!

[irishguy74]

With my sponser is what i meant to say. This dang spell checker!

[irishguy74]

I am at the 14th Annual Illinois-Missouri mens A.A. breakfast convention this morning with my soonest and literally hundreds of other alcoholics and addicts! It's pretty neat!

[Ann2497]

That is true.  It is good for you to be around other sober people.  Glad to hear you are doing well and continue to go to meetings.

[irishguy74]

Sorry i haven't posted in awhile, been really busy with work and going to meetings every day. The single mom is sober, and doing ok, she just has so much stuff! I am really happy i was able to help. Plus my sponser says that doing things like that will keep me help keep me sober.

[Ann2497]

That is nice of you to help a single mom with three kids.  Is she currently using?

[irishguy74]

Going to sleep now, been trying to figure out some things on this website that are not really important, but still driving me edging crazy none the less

[irishguy74]

Feeling good, right now i am helping a fellow alcoholic move out of her house into a smaller place and it has been raining the whole time! But it feels good to help someone out especially a single mom with 3 kids.

[Ann2497]

good for you.  how are you feeling?

[irishguy74]

Yes i am very fortunate to have a well paying job with great benifits, and i work very hard at it. But a rain day is very welcome after a hard few days. I slept in and am paying some bills and going to look at a nice house i may start renting

[Emily_MHManager]

Again, let's keep this to supporting irish_guy74, and abide by his wishes (and ours) to not discuss the family/girlfriend aspect.

Irish_guy74 can't get the support he needs if others are bringing up stuff that we've already said need to be left alone, as it takes the focus of him, his use and his recovery.

Emily

[Ann2497]

The fact that you are working is a good sign.

[irishguy74]

Thank you for your support, and you are right, i am putting my recovery first

[irishguy74]

Just woke up feeling great! Probably because i am off work today due to the weather, plus i went to a great meeting last night, i will post more once i get up and about. Hope everyone has a great day!