crack

[irishguy74]

Just had a major relapse on crack after 3 yrs, need help

[tomskat]

Hi there and welcome!! so..how much is a "major" relapse? It is good to seek help and recognize that you do need help. that's step 1. Now comes the hard part-quitting.Have you stopped or are you still using?IF so,how ;long have you been clean for?How much were you using&for how long?

You can beat this and remain clean.Have you thought about why you relapsed this time?If so,what will you do to prevent it from happening again?What type of help do you seek-rehab,meetings,etc?A little more info please.I noticed you added the tracker,which is a great way to monitor your clean time/usage to get you to remain clean.I guess,what is your plan  this time around-what will you do differently?In the end,we are the ones that must change our ways,our lives or else we never can break through.It's hard,yes,but nothing worthwhile is ever easy.You can do this-we're here to help!!!

[Ann2497]

wow - sounds like a soap opera.  We need to know how much you are using.  Are you still using today?

[Emily_MHManager]

Hi everyone -

Please only post if you have something supportive to add for irishguy74.  If anyone has personal issues with him, keep it to PM or off MedHelp.

Thanks.

Emily

[justsaynotodrugs]

   Relapse can happen sometimes thats what it takes.  You recognize that you need help with the drug problem what I did to quit was to enter a treatment center we got one close to home so I packed a bag and went for 28 days this helped me to understand addiction better I was broke down it was go to treatment or go to jail done been in jail didn't want to go back so I went to treatment and started na aa meetings I really did not like these meetings but I slowly started to get use to them and share how drugs was ruining my life.  When I got out I stayed clean for 2 months and relapse for a few days but I could not get treatment out of my mind so I started going to meetings up town and Haven't relapsed since.   Ive been clean quit a while now when I think about a drug which ain't often I think of jail or the pain I had when I quit.  So keep posting go to meetings get a sponser an pray.    Hang in there.

[Ann2497]

Why aren't you posting?  What happened to you?

[Ann2497]

Sorry, did mean to come off as rude - I was just concerned.  I was worried that something had happened to you. Like you were out on a drug binge or something.  Glad to hear that you were at meetings.  That is the best news ever!  Don't worry about your girlfriend.  The most important thing is that you want to be clean, you are going to meetings and you came to this board for help.  I guess she is a recovering addict since she is on the board?

How many days clean are you?   What is your history?  There are a lot of great people on this site with alot of empathy for each other.

[Ann2497]

Well - I hope you can stay clean and get your life back.  Do you have anyone to support you besides your sponsor?

[CATUF]

you're really lucky . . .it sounds like you went out and got back in quick.  there's no guaranty that we'll get to come back at all, let alone quickly.

my suggestion to you would be to work on your recovery and forget about pretty much everything else.  they say in the rooms that anything you put in front of your recovery is going to be lost anyway.  i've found that to be true, and never more trun than with crack.

anyone who has spent any time suck in that particular rut knows that crack is a different animal.  it has the ability to slam dunk you and anyone attached to you in a manner that is qualitatively different . . . it's just a damn train wreck.

so, put your recovery first and spend your effort there.  if you do that, everything that's supposed to be in your life will fall into place, without effort on your part, exactly when it's supposed to.

CATUF
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[vicki595]

Actually, I believe there are three sides to every story: his,hers,and the truth...

Keep posting and receiving support. It's safe here.

I agree with CATUF. You are so lucky to jump back in and feel this good. It doesn't usually happen that way as many relapses are binges...I wish you well.

[irishguy74]

Just woke up feeling great! Probably because i am off work today due to the weather, plus i went to a great meeting last night, i will post more once i get up and about. Hope everyone has a great day!

[irishguy74]

Thank you for your support, and you are right, i am putting my recovery first

[Ann2497]

The fact that you are working is a good sign.

[Emily_MHManager]

Again, let's keep this to supporting irish_guy74, and abide by his wishes (and ours) to not discuss the family/girlfriend aspect.

Irish_guy74 can't get the support he needs if others are bringing up stuff that we've already said need to be left alone, as it takes the focus of him, his use and his recovery.

Emily

[irishguy74]

Yes i am very fortunate to have a well paying job with great benifits, and i work very hard at it. But a rain day is very welcome after a hard few days. I slept in and am paying some bills and going to look at a nice house i may start renting

[Ann2497]

good for you.  how are you feeling?

[irishguy74]

Feeling good, right now i am helping a fellow alcoholic move out of her house into a smaller place and it has been raining the whole time! But it feels good to help someone out especially a single mom with 3 kids.

[irishguy74]

Going to sleep now, been trying to figure out some things on this website that are not really important, but still driving me edging crazy none the less

[Ann2497]

That is nice of you to help a single mom with three kids.  Is she currently using?

[irishguy74]

Sorry i haven't posted in awhile, been really busy with work and going to meetings every day. The single mom is sober, and doing ok, she just has so much stuff! I am really happy i was able to help. Plus my sponser says that doing things like that will keep me help keep me sober.

[Ann2497]

That is true.  It is good for you to be around other sober people.  Glad to hear you are doing well and continue to go to meetings.

[irishguy74]

I am at the 14th Annual Illinois-Missouri mens A.A. breakfast convention this morning with my soonest and literally hundreds of other alcoholics and addicts! It's pretty neat!

[irishguy74]

With my sponser is what i meant to say. This dang spell checker!

[Ann2497]

That sounds great!

[irishguy74]

Went to two meetings today, was rained out at work. This older guy came into the meeting tonight who had 16 years and went back out this weekend. Then there was another guy who it was his first meeting, i know i am in the right place. But why is it that someone can be supportive of the person who has one month or two years but not be supportive of the guy who has a couple years and slips up? I just don't get it. Maybe i'm not supposed to?