day 12

[dede2121]

i really want to type a long post about how i am but i am babysitting my 18 month old grandson and he likes to bang on the computer when i am using it so i dont know how far i will get.
but anyway i have made it to day 12 and feel pretty good. some anxiety and a little tired but am thinking more clearly and i am actually starting to laugh at things. when i was using i now notice that i didnt laugh at anything. if you really want to laugh at something watch rob dyrdek. he is funny.
i had a hard time going thru wd's this time. but some of you on here know how long i have struggled. getting a pill today did cross my mind(i wouldnt know where to get one) but i thought i feel so good now, that i dont think a pill could make me feel any better. anyhoo as i figured grandson is crawling on me. i will try to type more later. i am so thankful to be 12 days clean.

[gnarly_1]

Hey Dede  good to see you havent lost your fight  im happy you found your way back   now lets get serious about getting you clean    if time tells you annything it is what you have done in the past dont work  you got to treat the diease   take the time only an hr a day and hook up with N/A  you willl wounder how you did it without it   it is a great program and will help Keep you clean im happy your threw the wost of it  now lets focus on your recovery..........good luck and God bless.......Gnarly

[YesLife4Me]

Yes!  I remember the first time I truly belly laughed after detoxing and starting recovery.  It was around 10 days too.  You are doing incredible and so happy you cut your sources.   That's a hard thing to do, but necessary so we don't slip up in week moments.   The tiredness and energy takes a while to come back.  Usually within 30 days you notice a significant change.  Keep reminding yourself what a good thing you are doing for yourself and each day you are getting better!  

[VICourageous]

The weakness was my worst for a while..But do not go by me..I went c/t from 12yrs on Methadone was snorting it with adderral and a benzo at night..So the anxiety hit the moon and I just dropped Hard..I am now in 7m and I have been doing OK..Exercise is a Plus..So I better get my behind up and go do it!!!! You will be good to go real soon..The body takes time to Heal and Bounce back...It sounds like you have your hands full...Yes I had to divorce all my user friends too..I have known one since I was 17..That has been 40 years and she still is a nut...You know thinks she is just fine..Right..It is worse the second time around for you..Or the symptoms the same..

[Imdoneforsure0723]

Congrats 0n your 12 days clean, and I'm glad you didn't get a pill today.  good job by redirecting yourself on that.  Your energy will come back and it's even better than any fake energy that those pills use to give you.

[FourJays]

Congratulations on 12 days!!!!  What an inspiring post.  Keep up the good work and the laughter will follow!  

[dede2121]

thanks bama and vic. my only aftercare plan now is to keep my guard up. i cant get to meetings right now but i will soon. i have cut off all ties to pills, something i didnt do before. i am really just TIRED OF BEING TIRED.

[VICourageous]

Right On..Good Job..12 days..And you re-directed your self from using...Yes the laughter Just come back..I noticed that before I had any energy..I am very Goofy Now..Where have we been..Right? Gotta Love It...
Keep on Truckin...
vickie

[bama88]

Congradulations. your coming into your natural state of being. What are your aftercare plans?? you need to keep your gaurd up. guard your sobriety with your life