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day 28 no tram
Geez, I almost feel like posting is a waste of time, not for myself, but for you guys....SOS differnt day, month, week, year. I have good days, I sleep @ night and don't wake up in a WD sweat. I am greatful and undeserving....I wanna be high. Not so much w/tram (it's rat poison folks) but w/ any other opiate. I miss the feeling. I'm ashamed. I also don't want to discourage anyone...Is it just me who prefers to be a little numb? Is there something wrong w/me that I'm so selfish.I try, most times to be better for others, MY CHILD...not myself. Think I'm depressed...taking st johns wort sporadically. I seem to not wanna help myself thus I feel like I waste everyones input ect...Do love each and everyone of you who have helped me thru over the YEARS....Will this get better??? Sad n lonely, hubby wks very late nites 5-6d/wk...Too much TIME on my hands, I guess....
Hi Wanna..
Good for you for posting. I'm sorry you are feeling down and out. You've come a long way and it does take time to heal. I would second the advice about exercise and fresh air. Are you doing any aftercare? Getting clean is learning to live all over again. I found I had to totally re-invent my routine and keep it super structured.
The emotion can be overwhelming at times and you need a safe and healthy place to explore it. Numbing it out only delays the pain. A temporary solution that creates a heck of a lot more problems and can only end badly.
You've come a long way, fought hard, and I'm proud of you. You've got to keep fighting...You are worth it.
Sending big hugs,
Lu
Good for you for posting. I'm sorry you are feeling down and out. You've come a long way and it does take time to heal. I would second the advice about exercise and fresh air. Are you doing any aftercare? Getting clean is learning to live all over again. I found I had to totally re-invent my routine and keep it super structured.
The emotion can be overwhelming at times and you need a safe and healthy place to explore it. Numbing it out only delays the pain. A temporary solution that creates a heck of a lot more problems and can only end badly.
You've come a long way, fought hard, and I'm proud of you. You've got to keep fighting...You are worth it.
Sending big hugs,
Lu
it s nothing to be ashamed of, i m in a process of recovering from heroin addiction (i did it for 14 yrs.) and i m clean for over 3 months. but still fight the urge of doing it everyday and felt the same u did. but this is what every1 here has made me realise that i m good enough for atleast fighting my addiction and so r u. i wish all goes well for u.
love gunnu
love gunnu
Nothing is wrong with you, please know that. You suffered addiction....it takes its toll. Have you seen your dr? Maybe an antidepressant could help? Are you getting out? Fresh air? Excercise? Huggs to you, ww. S
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