day 6

[lesah]

I am not doing well.   Nothing helps.   It's going on 60 hours of zero sleep.  I am losing grip.  I haven't taken a pill but I do feel like I'm not going to be ok

[onthefence]

don't take anything right now to try to feel better, (nyquill etc.) just Be! let go, i know its hard , i and many others have been there, i was broke too, infact lost home and ended up with nothing but truck and hope of new life, it happened!
pray for strenghth to live your higher powers will whatever that is , and know with your heart everything is as it should be, , as time passes it will get easier you are at the peak.you will be stronger , for this , and you will need to be to continue to grow in recovery, .
i realize this sounds like krap right now but when you make it through you will understand easier, , force yourself to have faith, and realize it will only get worse with continued use.....

[lesah]

If I could just stop thinking about not being able to sleep! !!!!!!!! That's the thing.   I am listening and trying every suggestion. I did get out yesterday. Probably shouldn't have went to see my mom.   Honestly I wanted to see her sober.  Since she's been in this catatonic state ive not one time went to see her without being pulled up and stoned.  Idk I just for some retarded reason wanted to see her.   It felt good to be sober but it also hurt way worse looking at her.  From that anxiety I worked myself into not being able to sleep.  I know it's allot of my b thinking about it that's making it worse but every yawn I say I  just want to sleep in my head.   Do you know what I mean?  And right now that has me thinking about a blunt.  A xanax. A seroqil.  All bad.   All things I've had to detox from in the past.   Percocet isnt my worry now.  Xanax weed. . That's What's pulling at me right now.   :( when this is done. .. never ever ever again!

[Heather8448]

If i can do it anyone can, just push through and fight it...it took us a while to do the damage but after 10 months with no pills i will tell you this will make you stronger if you keep fighting! Turn up the radio fight for your life and know the sickness will pass! You go this!!!

[nonights]

How are you doing now. I swear the head games are terrible. Let God be in control. You dont have to try to figure it all out. You are doing the right thing by not using. Everything else will fall into place.

[Yesidid]

This has been said so many times in so many ways but remember Lesah N-O-T-H-I-N-G is as bad as we make it out to be in our own heads at this stage of the game! Your own thoughts cannot be trusted!. I fought my crazy period by substituting every obsessive though with a verse from Psalms: "Trust in The Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to Him and He will make your path straight,"

[Real180]

Stay away from the OTC sleep aids -- for some reason they make the restlessness much worse.. I know some people have used them and they work but when I tried them it made everything much, much worse...keep pushing forward I know it doesn't seem it but you are almost though it...