tell me your stories si I don't feel so alone

[momscared79]

I am 34 years old and have been addicted to pain killers for 11years. I just got out of detox and not sure what to do now. Sometimes it helps to hear from other people and their stories. Sucess and failures.  They all help. Thank you

[Amandag78]

Hello there !!
Im very proud to say after many attempts and failing, ive been off heroin and ice for over 2 years and clean from subutex maintanance for 4 months. Its been a very long and rough road. I never thought i would be clean.
I started abusing drugs when i was 17 and stopped at 33.
I was also an alcoholic and havent touched any in 8 years.
So very proud today.
You too can have a success story in time.
Keep up the faith and never give up !!
Stay strong and positive : )

[Ldytaz]

Welcome to our community.. I was addicted to speed for 20 years,off 17 now.I got injured and was given loritabs 10 years ago.For 6 I told myself it is only for the pain.If I dont get high it is ok.The dr gave them to me so,I still counted myself clean..The last 2 years on them I always ran out at 3 weeks.the last year I was getting them from friends til I had to buy scrpits to get by.Finally 2 years ago I had to face the fact that I ahd a problem and went the wrong way to get off.I am now 8 days off a 2 year stint on methadone. It has been a long road.That said when I first started this 17 years ago,I would have never done it without n/a.I went once then twice..The next thing I knew I was going 5-7 nights aweek.If it were not for their,smiles,hugs and stories I would have been lost.ppl we know and love try to understand but the sad fact is we need to be with,around or talking to ppl who have went through it.In n/a they range from getting clean to ppl who have 20,30 years in.They will be there for u.U can talk to them,tell them anything,they do not judge,they do not laugh.. They want u to tell them how u feel,what u r doing,what u have done.. Time after time they smile and never never will they turn u away..Sorry got on a rant..been doing that for a few days now.. This is another place where u will not be judged..Keep coming back

[gnarly_1]

Hi and welcome to the forum where glad you found your way here as for what to do now the key to long term sobriety is some form of aftercare I used my pastor and a substance abuse conslor for 3 yrs  and it helped but I still struggled just because you stoped the pills does not me the addiction is over the very way we think has to change I had herd good things about N/A and thought I would give it a try I got to say it has worked like tjhey said it would  N/A targets the whole you mind body and soul the 12 steps teach you a new way to think and it is extreamly helpful when faced with life on lifes terms I recamend it to everybody you will see groth in yourself you will be welcome with a hug and noone expects perfection but rather groth as you move threw the steps  ' it is all about addicts helping addicts give it a try if your anytnig like me you will find yourself right at home I wish you the best of luck keep reading the posts and post for support we all want to see you make it.............Gnarly

[ImNotAJetBike]

Day ten myself. Anytime I get down about where I'm at or start feeling cravings, I tell myself that there are people on this forum that would kill to be on day ten and it's in no way worth throwing that away.  

I've been addicted to hydrocodone for the last three years, and prior to that was Darvocet since I can't even remember when I started nicking them from my parents who always had an overabundance of them. I honestly just got tired of living prescription refill to prescription refill. I know the issues I have aren't going to ever get resolved with a perpetually cloudy mind, so I'm taking withdrawal on the chin this time and just powering through.

Eleven days is no small feat. Like I said, so many people here would kill to be on day eleven. It's an accomplishment. You have to own your accomplishments. What you've done so far takes tremendous effort and patience. It's not worth throwing away.

[Crbj83]

I was addicted to pain killers for almost two yrs. I hid it from everyone..... Even the people I love. I was a mess! Numbing myself to jus nit have to deal .... I recently realized I wanted my life back! Came clean with my husband .... And I'm now 24 days clean :) loving life and all it is offering me sober :) congrats on your day 11:) keep pushing thru ..... It's worth it :)