so glad I found this forum today. I am getting very scared. I started taking darvocet in 2005, my brother was supplying them. Then I hernieted a disc and was in terrible pain, the dr's prescribed vicoden and then Oxy. I have been on oxycodone for the last 4 years but have been able to keep the dose relatively stable. My pain mgmt doc prescribes 45-60mg a day but i only take about half that. I have been squirreling the reest away and now have several bottles of 15mg pills. I want to stop taking this stuff. i read that it can cause depression, which I have had a terrible time with. But worse, taking narcotics can trigger serious bouts of anger, crying and other emotional disturbances particularly if you have borderline personality disorder, which I found out I do have. I want off of these meds and want my old self back. But I cant seem to gather the courage to flush all of the pills. What do I do about that? Also, do you think that even though I have been using for 7 years, that I will have an easier time going CT? Should I try to taper instead? all help is appreciated!