im back

[jojostopnow]

Its been a long time . Ive been thru so much, I lost everything and that still wasnt enough. The pills consumed me. I so scared of the withdrawals I dont know what to, please have it in your heart to talk me through it. I went to 60mg at a time. Please tell me I will live through the wd. Im so scared right now

[jojostopnow]

Thank u guys for u kind words. Im Going crazy im so tired.. I cant sleep, all in my head. I feel crazy, ive lost so much to pills, im struggling so hard to get through the day.

[Cricketk92]

Hi Jojo!  Like every else has said...You CAN do this!  Yes it will S**K for a few days but once that is over it gets better everyday!!  If you are at your bottom and want to do whatever it takes to get clean this time anything is possible!!!!  Keep on posting and hang in there!!!!

[spider6]

Awww, sweetie, I remember you of course! Pleeeeeease keep hangin on chickie.  "The pills destroyed me".......well, they destroyed everything around you, but YOU are still here. Universe is just waitin to see what you're going to do with that gift.  Make this your "rock bottom" sweetie.  We're all here.  Keep posting and reading and putting one foot in front of the other.  Much prayers of strength, hope and peace mama,...they haven't killed you yet, so you ARE winning. Hugs

[jojostopnow]

No pills, I just havnt slept, not even 5 mi .. its affecting me. Sick kids and I lost my house.  So im on someone's  couch
The pills destroyed me. Anyone out there reading this stay clean.

[jojostopnow]

No pills, I just havnt slept, not even 5 mi .. its affecting me. Sick kids and I lost my house.  So im on someone's  couch
The pills destroyed me. Anyone out there reading this stay clean.

[jifmoc]

Hey, Jojo

What's happening today? Do you have pills? How did you get them?

You will feel better when you are in the solution instead of the problem. Can't think our way outta this. Only action counts.

So, what's your obstacle?

[Merri123]

Awww jojo I remember you too. Think about you too. You have had a rough go. That's for sure. Are you getting any counseling?  That will help you love yourself like you should and start learning how to live sober.

And so you have diaharea at work. The flu has been hitting everyone hard. They're looking at you bc they are afraid you will get them sick.

You can do this and get your life back. Get those boys with you too. We're rooting for you. Please reach out as much as you need. We are here.

[Determined08]

You got this, keep going! I'm on day 8 and a smidgen a day I feel better and better - cry it out too. Be good to yourself

[Dozeman]

hang in there I to get depressed so just know you are not alone and can make it I know for me it has gotten better not great but better just like everyone said it would so it will for you to

[jojostopnow]

I just wanted to stop through, this is just I dont know what to say, but im here really tryn, tears flowing, will I ever be happy again. This is hard

[treedr]

If I'm still going, you can do it too. Don't worry about the people at work. A saying that has gotten me past many hard times is "most men live lives of quiet desperation". It isn't just you. Your diarrhea will pass soon enough. For me it's because I can't keep anything down. lol a new year is beginning. Start new with it. You're only a couple days behind me, so come on girl!

Luvya,
Joy

[msdelight]

Hi jojo. I just want to give you a big hug because I think you need one right now. One immodium will help, but if not try bananas, rice, applesauce and tea. Wish I could do more to help. Those feelings of hurt have been bottled up so long that they just come pouring out. Cry it out honey, get rid of it. It will pass. Just let it out.

[jojostopnow]

It hurts so bad, I feel broken my driv use was just a way to cope with the pain I felt, inside the disappointment, I have been hurt so many times, tryn to figure out how to live drug free. I feel like a failure. I want to be happy again, I want to smile again. God help me

[jojostopnow]

Today was hard so embarrassing having diarrhea at work, they was looking at me, I feel so overwhelmed, I dont know who I am or what I have become. I will try this again tomorrow with Gods help. The Imodium makes me sick so I dont take it.  

[motye51]

I do remember you.....jojolovesherboys.....did you lose them? How much further down do you want to go? If I remember correctly, you've been battling this for a long time....are you freakin tired yet? Sometimes losing everything is really the best thing that can happen b/c you can only go up now!   Start NOW!  Dump what you have left (what are you taking nowdays anyway?) and start the process....you know the drill, find the Thomas Taper and do it.  As soon as you can, get your *** in aftercare!  YOU MUST do some form of aftercare or it won't work!  The w/d will not kill you!  Go in the bathroom and look in the mirror....do you like what you see? ( I sure as hell didn't)!  Time to take action....no more talking....all action from here forward!  You want your life back...you have to fight for it!  Let me know when you intend to start....I will be here for sure!  We will help push you!

[nownlater]

You have to stop liken the drug to want to quit. You need to stop hateing  yourself for what you have become, what you need is to start loving yourself again and remember you were'nt always an addict. You can do it.

[jifmoc]

Jojo- what's your backround? How long have you been using?

Listen, the wd's are NOTHING compared to a lifetime going down the toilet. Your money, your dignity, your home, then your life. That's where it's going.

Just do it. None of us escaped the wds. We all have to go thru them. There is no way around them. Do it and get to the other side.

Are you ready?

[imalldone]

And 60 mg at a time don't worry I took 17 10/325 one night about every half hour and I had no intention of hurting myself,I'm an addict and when you get hooked on these pills you are no longer thinking rationally,so 3 days out of your life that you feel like **** is well worth it to get yourself clean,by the way im on day 4 and I feel no physical withdrawal at all anymore,just a little depressed but that will pass too.

[imalldone]

You didn't die and go to hell,you'll feel like **** for 2 to 3 days and you get better every day after that,just do stuff to get your mind off of them,loud music,hot showers or baths,walk,anything,3 days are the worst and I promise it will get better.