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[stilltrying1965]

I understand if know one wants to support me, anymore. I have failed lost my clean time not with heroin iv been  taking cocaine and smoking weed. Now i give up on myself. I dont deserve your time ,,,,,James

[jstntime]

Hey James!!!!

I know Sophie and many others have recommended NA and AA and many others have suggessted getting away from your so called "friends" but the BEST thing about doing the meetings is that you will find NEW friends; clean ones, who will support you in your recovery and not tempt you with drugs.

Nobody here will EVER give up on you.  We know about the shame and the guilt and hurting those you love.  Wouldn't Kim be proud if you started meetings and stepped it up and did EVERYTHING you could to stay clean????  

Just like you told me on my last relapse James.....there IS light at the end of the tunnel......sometimes we just have to open our eyes to see it.

Will say a prayer for you my friend and hope you get this figured out,
NEVER give up, NEVER surrender,

bob

[stilltrying1965]

my wife keeps putting me out at night thats how i end up at my so called friends my own family wont let me near,,,,,,James

[dominosarah]

Then do something to change that James.  Actions speak louder than words.

[stilltrying1965]

aye right am a junkie in there eyes,,,,James

[dominosarah]

Then show them something different.  Your family is only reacting to what they have seen.  We dont just quit doing drugs and everything is okay and all old feelings are just gone.......It is up to you to change your behavior.  

[LIZZIE LOU]

if someone told me that if i bought a lottery ticket...i WOULD win the money...i'd buy one

if someone told me that if i swam in that river...i WOULD get eaten alive by crocodiles...i wouldnt go in

if someone told me that i was driving on the wrong side of the road...i WOULD move over.

would you?

what i'm saying is that we need to LISTEN to those who know better...more than we do...regardless of the situation.

you have been told repeatedly what you need to do to STAY CLEAN...but you are CHOOSING to NOT listen.  i know that you are an addict...and there is nothing more that i hate to hear than "but i am an addict".  oh ok...you're an addict... but addicts still have a CHOICE regarding their sobriety and recovery.

hate me if you want to james...spew venom my way...but i'm not so sure that you truly want to be clean and sober.  if you did...you would start listening ! ! ! ! !

HEAR WHAT EVERYONE HAS TOLD YOU JAMES...NA/AA WILL WORK IF YOU WORK THE PROGRAM.