My experience getting off Suboxone

[delmars4]

Hi All,

   I am new here but I feel like I know alot of you by reading your painful stories.  I feel for ALL of you.  As you know this situation (Opiates) suck the life and soul right out of you.  I have felt like a loser and a failure for 2 years.  I became dependant on Vicodin from a back injury.  Like most they started as a legitimate prescription.  Like most, when all was said and done my tolerance was up, my depression was up, my anxiety was up, and my sense of self worth and respect from my family was way down.  My use was any where between 8-16 pills every day.  I paid $1200 abd went to a Suboxone clinic.  I started at 8mg/day.  Doctor said I would be on it for life.  I thought "Oh yeah, you wanna bet."  I self tapered over the next 25 days down to .25mg/day then jumped. Holy $$%#^&@. It was HARD. SO HARD.  Today is my 14th day off the Sub and I have to admit, the depression and anxiety have been hard.  The physical W/D are over and I am getting better because of one thing.LDN.  Today is my 7th day on LDN and I still have depression but it is getting better FAST every day.  PAWS will be history soon.  I hope I am not getting a false sense of hope because I am feeling better fast BUT I am keeping my head up and enjoying the moments that I feel like this stupid nightmare MIGHT be ending soon.  I sincerely feel for all of you and I wish I could put my hand on you and tell you it will all be allright.  Know this.  IT WILL BE ALLRIGHT.  You will recover and slowly but surely your mind will start releasing you from the HELL that is opiate addiction.  In your detox one moment you will think to yourself "It has been 1/2 hour and I forgot about feeling bad."  You will then be on your way to getting your soul back that that **** stole from you.

[delmars4]

Hello to you. Thanks for posting. I still have depression but it is lifting more and more every day.  If you don't mind me asking, do you think it is better to take the 25mg. of the Naltrexone or the low dose version?  The reason I chose the LDN is to try to get my sleepy endorphins going again.  Currently I am not worried about relapsing because I will burn in hell before I put another one of those pills in my mouth.  Do you think that 25mg. would be more beneficial to me?  How is the 25mg. doing for you?  I hope it is helping you feel better and get on with whatever it is you like to get on with : )

Take care of yourself.  Ultimately no one else will.

[Ella789]

I am on Day 7 Naltrexone also  and am so glad you posted!!!!!!   I am glad I am taking Naltrexone,,,  today 1/2 tablet ( not doing low dose  but Ginsa is)  hopeing that you and she can talk as she seems to be having good results also!  I hope she reads this post of yours too!

Best wishes
El

[worried878]

ur dose...80-160 mgs of hydro a day is quite a gap...but no hydro habit should be sentenced to life on a maintenence narcotic...ur dr was a nut and obviously i c that alot here..and i am in the medical profession and do respect a dr..i really do...but either he was a quack or he had no education on addiction and hopefully the latter is true...u go and i am so glad for u....jumping from the fire into the frying pan with a hydro habit to a sub addiction is just happening way way way too often according to what i read here..i am happy 4 u that u were so strong..hopefully u will post and help others as sub wd is turning into one of the major topics here..so keep posting