I bet if you show this forum to your wife, or even just print out this thread she will understand. this forum is the only way i stopped being "in denial" about my own addiction and decided to quit. Before I read it I kept reassuring myself that I was in constant pain and there was no Dr. taht would ever undestand pain and a built -up tolerance... Boy was I soooo wrong.
I am praying for your safety first, and then I ask God to help you beat this addiction without sub or anything else. Just be safe friend. How many times that could have happened to me or any of us. God was with you that day...you could have been killed. please be careful
sweetheart.... absolutely no need to apologize. in addition to support, sometimes we ask each other the tough questions, too. sometimes we're right, sometimes we're wrong... but i do think you will always get the truth here, at least the best attempts at it!!!
and I say KUDOS to you for already calling the doctor. that's fantastic - you haven't even been on here a day!!! shows alot of strength, my friend.
God bless you Bobby. glad you are here... I know when I got here a few months ago I had never been so scared or desperate in my whole life. and these wonderful people made me feel I wasn't alone. nor are you...
you're gonna beat this buddy....
with luv,
:)
mj
(oh yeah, i'm a female :-)
First off, I am calling you the Waterboy. In the Adam Sandler movie "The Waterboy", Sandler's character's name is Bobby Boushea.
That is great that you're seeking treatment. I went cold turkey myself, but I hear that Suboxone has worked wonders for a lot of people. And if you really get to skip the physical withdrawals, I'm all for it because withdrawals are no walk in the park. Keep it up, think positive, and you will make it.
It Is Time!
I know what waterboy said is probably true but it was a hard reality for me to swallow. I started writing on here because I want to stop and I have unsuccessfully tried many times in the past on my own. I see the support that everyone here gives to each other and I know that is something I will need in order to win this battle. In all honesty when I first read the comment from marcatj I got angry. I thought , how dare someone who does"nt know me question my motives. It made me mad. But then I read it over and over and I started to see what mj meant by it. I at first thought he was questioning as to weather I was lying to everyone about my problem and my desire to quit. I later realized he was asking weather I was lying to myself about why I cant. I wish I had waited longer before responding to him about his comment. Marcatj, if your reading this I appologize for mistaking your help as an attack an my judgement. I realize now that you were only trying to help, and your comment did open my eyes and force me to think from a different perspective. Thank You for caring enough to ask. And thank you waterboy, for helping me to understand. I know that I will beat this thing. I just got off the phone with a doctors office who has scheduled me to come in to discuss different treatment options, such as the suboxone that nogie1717 was telling me about. I will be on this site often and hopefully some day soon I will be able to start sharing my victory stories with everyone. I have never been what you would call a very religious person but I do believe in God. I would only ask that you pray for God to help me through this. Thanks
In a way, I think mj is right about all of us. The drugs that have clouded are brains for so long are selfish. They don't want us to think about anything but them, not our family, not our friends, not our work, not our finances. It's not until the drugs are out of our brains that we see what has really happened. We shut out all the good things in life for some ridiculous idea of needing chemicals to make us happy. All the while, the drugs are thinking for you, telling you: "If you tell her, the jig will be up and I will make you pay". I know these thoughts because they were my own. On the fourth day of my recovery, something changed. I realized what I had been doing. I can not beleive that I allowed myself to get like that, but I did, and now I vow to never let it happen again.
You have control of your life. Don't listen to the drug thoughts because they are not your own. In a short time you will feel like a new person.
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