im realy scared and very sick

[crissy95]

Hi, my name is Heather and all of my life I have been drug and alcohol free...until 8 months ago...when I had my baby my dr prescribed me lorecet the green ones...when I got home I was in so much pain and didnt feel like doing anything...but my friend came over and asked me why I hadnt taken my meds.that it would make me feel better...so for the first time in my life I took them and I felt so good...I got my whole house clean, doing my job very quickly...just energy out of this world so I loved them...and I didnt want to stop taking them so I got them from friends at 4 dollars a pill...Ive been taking them now (5 per day) for 8 months and now i realize how bad they are and everyone I know is addicted to them...so Two days ago I put them down and will not be taking them agian...i have never felt so much pain, nausea, chills and cant stop crying I cannot even get out of bed....I will not go to a doctor and I will not get professional help...my question is how long am I going to have these symptoms??? is it days? weeks please tell me when I will be better???

[tobeej]

I have just started reading ur post.I'm still taking the lortabs at $6 each. I take anywhere from 5-6 per day. I know everything there is to know about the drug. I'm a paramedic I know how dangerous they are. I don't want to go into rehab but I need to stop now! Its ruining my life.thank u to everyone its really giving me the strength to stop....tp

[Steve_MHModerator]

We do have a Divorce and Breakups Community that may help.(http://www.medhelp.org/forums/Divorce--Breakups/show/155).

Congrats on your detox journey!

[crissy95]

Well, ive stayed off the pills, and my next door neighbor sells them i just found out, what a trip, the devils ********....but when i go back and read these things i wrote, i remember the feeling of detoxing, my house is clean now though...and i lost 25 pounds, thanks for the support...you can find anything over the internet cant you??? does anyone know of online support like this that help you deal with breakups and divorce???

[Michiganguy328]

Crissy...

These posts are awesome.  Nice comments people.  Let everyone know that you are reading them...

[worried878]

CATUF mentioned a book..End Your Addiction Now...it helps us understand why we feel like we feel//often understanding is the key to getting well..one of the best books I have read in so far as self help books go,..cos i badly needed the knowledge this book has to offer

Clean time takes work..meetings daily for a few months plus exercise daily whtehr i felt  like it or not...having a plan is so important..i did the mainos//followed the thomas recipe to the letter when my original plan started leaking on me

Physical wds r not the only part of this roller coaster ride...mentally we have to change how we cope..to adapt like others do to feeling life's daily stress...and feeling down...we turned to pills//many of us did cos we did not want to feel//they became our coping mechansm/the pills did

sumpin has gotta change if anything is gonna change

keep posting

[CATUF]

Get the book End Your Addiction Now, by Charles Gant and go straight to chapter 4.
Your brain chemistry is afu and Gant's amino acid program will help you get it straightned out.

CATUF

[kona2009]

So what the house is messy.  You are doing so well and be very proud of yourself.  Doing little tasks like getting the dishes and small loads of laundry will give that positive feeling of getting thingd accomplished.  Keep your chin up and keep chugging along and take it one day at time.

You are doing so well!

[flmagi]

i miss them more than ever...my house was always clean..my car always washed...did my job quick and played with my kids alot...like horsey rides and stuff....now im just ******.....no energy...don't want to clean my house...hated christmas..
So your house is messy...you still have your house, still have your car, your job and your kids. Try to think positive. If you had continued with the pills, you wouldn't have to worry about a messy house, car, job or your kids, because they would all soon be gone. It really does happen. A lot. When you miss those pills, get busy. Don't think you can take even 1 pill, just one time. You'll be back where you started and worse.
Congrats for getting this far. Keep it up, don't turn back. And remember, no one dies from a messy house.

[Michiganguy328]

You are not lazy at all.  I'm on day 103 and there are still times when I can't get my butt out of bed or I shut the door to my office and take a short nap.  My adictionologist says the first 3 months can be bad, a little better the next 3 months then the next 6 months are usually pretty good.  He said it is common to take a year to get back to "normal".  

Hang in there and keep coming back here for support.  Maybe join the local NA for a little more support or to find a sponsor.  It is sooooo good you don't want to take the pills.  I found a bottle of Bennies this morning I forgot about and I couldn't flush them away fast enough; I almost threw up just holding the bottle.  

Hang tough and this too shall pass....

[viclon]

Dear Crissay
YOU ARE NOT LAZY, but lethargic due to the toll withdrawals and drugs have taken on your body. You have been pushing yourself to to the basics as you have stated. Allow yourself time to heal.

[Charetti]

I have been reading posts in here for months and I can assure you that your laziness is temporary.  Just remember what you were like before the evil pills.  It could take a while for you to get back to yourself but you are worth the wait.  Just manage anyway you can, tell people you are sick or do what you need to do.  I am sure your family would rather you had a messy house than a addicted mom/sis/daughter/etc

[viclon]

Hi Crissy
don't worry about the state of the house, just feed your children do activities that don't take much energy. The state of the house is so minor, your clean and that is what matters. One thing I use to do as aim to do something different than I did yesterday. I can recall big achievements like vacuuming or washing the dishes for the day. And really say to yourself I didn't feel like doing it but I did, and I feel good for it. This worked for me and I use to force myself to do it. So don't stress the small stuff, as long as you and kids are fed. Maybe get the kids to help but make a game of it. Like, "lets see who can pick up the toys the fastest". Sounds silly but it works.
Your doing great.

God bless

[crissy95]

i miss them more than ever...my house was always clean..my car always washed...did my job quick and played with my kids alot...like horsey rides and stuff....now im just ******.....no energy...dont want to clean my house...hated christmas...is this normal...or was i just taking the easy and unrealistic way out....by taking pills....these feelings are going to get better right??? its been 3 weeks or longer...damn i hate this

[Amaryllis1974]

Hey!
Congrats babe! I would love to be where you are!
Reading your first post got me out of my funk this morning. I was feeling pretty tired of feeling this way, but then I remembered why i was doing it.
I am tapering, but also detoxing....
You did it, so I can too.
Take a lot of vitamins....your body has been depleted.
B stress complex helps me with the depression.
God Bless
Amy

[crissy95]

well, in a way i still feel like im detoxing...i still have body aches...crying a little and am lazy as hell which is definitley not my way....i miss the hell outta my pills...but i like the money im saving and now do not have the hassle of having to find them 2 times a week...i miss the feeling and the energy it gave me ....theres no other feeling like it...but its been 2 a a half weeks i think another couple weeks im good

[freedom007]

Well said, everyone.  I figure if a POW can make it through 5 years of a Viet Namese death camp...we can certainly do this.  The brain makes it seem so much worse than it is.

Best of luck to all...even though, as an athlete, I don't believe Luck is ever a strategy...anything worth doing deserves hard work.

God Bless...whatever that may be for you...and keep up the great work.

[crissy95]

today i have a little more energy than yesterday...im being a better mom and started talking to my best friend agian.....im soooo glad im outta that situation...thank u all for the support

[PromisedLand]

Very proud of you Crissy95 and you should take a few minutes and be very proud of yourself..congratulations..you accomplished one of the toughest things we can do...



Jim

[Bre333]

Hey there,
The reason these pills give you so much energy and allow you to function so well is because they replace your endorphins. Endorphin literally means "the morphine within us". They are our endogenous opiates. When you start taking synthetic endorphins or opiates, your body halts production of endorphins and rely's on the opiates, the Lortab. Endorphins allow us to do a lot, to sleep, to relieve pain naturally, to eat,regulate temperature, to digest foods, to feel 'happy' and experience pleasure. When you go into a withdrawal state, you have none of this. NO happiness, no pleasure, no drive and no energy. So, what you NEED to do is exercise, even though this is probably the last thing you want to do. And drink a lot of water. Don't go buy medications to ease the symptoms, they usually don't do a damn. When your body is in withdrawal the norepinephrine kicks everything out and pushes everything AWAY From your receptors so even a sleeping pill or 10 won't work. Also, when people are in withdrawal this is the time they usually overdose-they think if they take more they'll feel better. Don't. Go for a walk around the block, get up, move-you have to kick your own as*. Believe me, you'll thank yourself later. And realize that if you can make it past day 4, your over the worst of it.
Most importantly, stay in the solution and realize you do have the ability to do this and life WILL get better. Humans tend to underestimate themselves, you really can get through this.
Good luck...

[crissy95]

i actualy am feeling normal today...ill never take pills agian..im over it...

[crissy95]

wow...the nauseau has gone along with most of the other symptoms...i can eat now and ive noticed im in a better mood, but i still do not have any energy...i still have to make myself do things but i think this is just the depression kicking in....which i am going to do something about...im making a doctors appointment for medication for depression..ive always been bi-polar so ive needed to do this anyway...like i said before the pills hide this pretty well anyway...i think im completely detoxed and with the money i saved me and my kids are going to start taking piano and guitar lessons

[GA Guy]

The reason we become addicts is due to the chemical structure of our brains. We ultimately think of the pills on the same "needs" levels of our brains as food, water, and breathing. It's that same chemical structure that makes us want to self medicate our emotional pain. Some people do need chemical intervention to correct that imbalance. Antidepressants are a good non-addictive choice. However, most doctors suggest that you have 6 weeks drug free before trying drug therapy just to see what your baseline is. That being said, if the depression and anxiety don't start to lift within a few days, see a doctor. Be honest and make sure not to accept anything addictive such as Benzos. First line treatment is usually a SSRI such as Lexapro.

[crissy95]

i stayed up all night going in and out of the bathroom i woke up crying twice but at least i slept some...last night i actualy held some food down which made me feel so much better...i had a friend come by last night with 10 vicodin so i could get better...i griped her out and then when she left i wondered if just one of those pills would have made me feel like a million bucks and i know it would have but i made her take them with her...i cant believe it, why do those pills make me feel so good, so much energy, i could get so much done...now my house is a mess, and i cant go to work...what can i replace the pills with thats good for me??? is there some kind of medication i can take from a doctor, and i dont mean things like prozak or zanex, i mean like an upper maybe an antidepresant...my head feels like its going to blow up...i have to say though i was spending like 800 dollars a month on those pills...now i have alot more money in the bank, cant wait till this nausea is over

[notgoingdown]

Remember what I said about the emotional wd's? When your brain will try any trick in the book to get you to take a pill?? All these emotions that you have been numbing with the pills are now feeling so overwhelming because it is you addiction trying to make you cope with a pill. Know it for what it is... and know that it WILL get better. Then when you are really 'you'... not numbed with pills and not crazy with wd feelings... you will be able to deal with the issues that you havent dealt with.