im staying clean!!!!!!!!!!!!wahoo

[scaredmommie]

18 days ago i didnt think i would make it to day 2 but now 18 day later im feeling great and better then ever. i havent felt this good it 3 years. im loving it so much. i owe al ot of it to this forum. thank you all so much. but i hope to stay clean for life. i know its a life long battle like cancer is, and i plan to fight it all the way, i know some days will feel great like im on top of the world, and some will be so bad i will wanna jump in front of a moving bus, and it will be like that for a long time, but no matter what im not gonna let my hard work go down the tubes. and dont get me wrong i did not do this ct or taper i wasnt strong enough i am on sub, but i have said before it dont matter which road you choose to get clean, as long as you get clean. thank you everyone for helping me everystep of the way.

xoxoxo
chrissy

[want2Bmeagain131]

I was just wondering, the last few days I take my dose at work and often cannot go without having to speak. Im wondering if this is causing me to not get the full amount I should, thus causing me to actually take less then I should be? Sounds strange but my Dr told me to make sure you dont speak or anything until its totally dissolved. So this could be the cause of me feeling like I cant get to that lower dose. Also want to add that I've been following your progress the whole time, since we started around the same time. Your doing great. Not to bring up an old wound but I went to an NA meeting and someone there did tell me that being on sub doesnt mean you can be considered clean. I can see what they mean by that and somewhat agree myself. However, in my wifes eyes Im clean and not foolishly wasting money on OC's or perc's. To my family I'm my old self all day long, not hot and cold. So in that respect, if the ones I truly care about are happy with me taking a course of action to better myself and I myself feel sooo much better then I did 18 days ago, then I consider myself clean.  And so should you. God bless, good luck......We are in a beautiful place.

[joann1975]

Please no matter what...don't jump in front of a moving bus under any circumstances.It's bad for your health! LOL Congrats on 18 days and keep up the good work! (hope you got my sense of humor there)

JoAnn

[want2Bmeagain131]

Ok, thank you for the concern. hope you achieve all your goals, best of luck, stay strong

[scaredmommie]

i would talk to your sub dr. maybe he would know what to do. maybe your not ready to go off yet. let me know how you are

xoxoxo
<3 chrissy

[want2Bmeagain131]

Its Kinda weird. Lately It seems harder to get by then the first 2 weeks were. Almost like I hit a brick wall and got stuck at this same dose for a week and can't lower it. I mean don;t get me wrong, Im not in terrible pain or withdrawal but there is a noticable discomfort. who knows? Just thinking out loud

[scaredmommie]

im not sure, i would say the sub cause from what i read on here percs and vics leave your system within 4 or 5 days. im not sure though, so i would ask around. but congrats on day 18. we will beat this together.

xoxoxo
<3 chrissy

[want2Bmeagain131]

Glad to see u made it this far. I am at Day 18 today also. I am down to 4 mgs. a day. Im having a hard time going down to 2 or 3 mgs. I was wondering if thats still the Percocet withdrawal or the suboxone withdrawal?

[scaredmommie]

i just wanted to start this day 18 post better. its gonna be better know, and im sorry to all i was disagreeing with earlier, i hope you can forgive me. we all need each other here.

xoxoxo
<3 chrissy