just need to talk to someone

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cant talk to anyone around me because they don't know would not be good if they knew who I really am. been clean from pills for two days feel ok but my mental stat is not good.try to call all types places they say u need tell everyone and go to rehab. but feel I just need to talk to someone an just tell them everything . if people found out I would lose my job I live paycheck to paycheck with a child on the way live in small town

Whollymolythathurt · Answer

Like Tiger said...your not alone.  When your little one starts to MOVE you'll be so happy your not on this crap.  As i mentioned it was easy with no kids & when they were young cause they didn't MOVE.  :)   Paying for that now but i get on here daily & see who has it worse.  

Believe it or not someone always has it worse.  I think about that say "if they can do it dammit i can also".  I've read some horror stories on this blog.  My issue is small in comparison..i did hydro for 3 years & never "abused" it.  My definition of abuse is taking more than the prescription....i've read people taking 10-15 hydros (10/325) at once....sheesh!  I'm 6'4 255 & in good shape & I wouldn't think of popping that many.  The fear of liver failure always hung over me. 

Again CUT the source & keep it up.  Day 4.75 for me.  At 6pm tonight it'll be 5 days.  Yea...i keep track like that.

tigerlily75 · Answer

Your definitely not alone! There are so many awesome supportive people here that have been where you are and are here to help and support you! I think that's awesome and definitely the best thing to do is get off the pills now before your baby gets here! Sending prayers and positive thoughts your way!

strandedalone · Answer

Hey Wholly, cant belive I made it the whole day at work my back hurts so bad mostly from just sittin around on crappy couch this has to be the end to this madness cant bare to think about my past because I think of the friends I pushed away the money I wasted damage I most likely did to my body 9 years of pills I think that's my biggest fear. anyway so funny today watched whale wars and started cryin for the whales lol an when it would get to a good part I was getting chills. my brain is on overload lately cant wait next week we find out sex of baby just tryin  to think of that. thanks for reply makes feel better that I not alone.

Whollymolythathurt · Answer

hey strandedalone....im in the same boat.  Day 4 here and physically ok but im a mental midget (no offense for any little people out there).  I dont have one on the way but have a 3 & 5 year old and sometimes feel guilty because they want to play & im physically & mentally exhausted.  I keep telling myself it's "better for the long run"..'better for the long run"...

No one in my circle knows either & some may say that's a mistake but i got here with no one knowing and will get out.

I'll assume you've cut your drug sources & if not do so now.  I simply said no more doc....this stuff is bad ju ju.  Me likey toooo much.  

You can get through this and as i said in the long run will be better for you, your SO & the little one on the way.  If this is your first i cannot express how important it is to get these out of your life.  Doing this with young kids is sooo much harder than none...IMHO.

keep in touch.

CRSeaside · Answer

Sending good vibes your way! Pamela

clean_in_ks · Answer

Too funny.....so sorry.....you're a MALE, eh?  Well, cancel just about everything I said above, K?  And forgive me for thinking you were a female.
(we can't necessarily "count on" the info provided on some peeps profiles)

We'd still like to help you anyway we can.....is this your first time getting off pain meds?  If you get a chance and want to share more with us...we'd love to help anyway we can.

strandedalone · Answer

my other half is preggo that would be neat if I got pregnant. thanks for reply just home on lunch so cant talk long

clean_in_ks · Answer

Welcome to the forum!  Did I read this correctly that you are pregnant and have taken yourself off pain meds?  You're on Day 2?  Did you cold turkey or taper/wean down?  Have you been able to discuss this with your OB?

Since you didn't share "what" or "how much" you were taking, it's hard to give you feedback.  But, regardless of where you are in your pregnancy, it is not safe/wise to cold turkey off opiates....your baby is feeling each and everything you are....only magnified about 100 times.

Please share more with us.  There is no judgement here.....we're all addicts and we have all done crazy things while addicted to our DOC (drug of choice).  Hope you'll share some more with us....this is a safe place~

mommymarieme · Answer

Hey there! It will help if you give us a little more info. What was your doc? How  many did you take per day? How long did you take them? 2 days is great! You will get alot of support here so stick around and tell us your story and we can give you advice and support. For the mental part try to keep your mind busy watch funny movies, listen to music and take a walk.