just want to talk

[sd_comedian]

I had  well have,( took my last yesterday)  habbit  wih  Norco. I have been taking 20 10-325 tabs at a time 4 times a day, sometims 5. Its gonna killmy liver and maybe me. I just got some detox meds but I have tried to detox twice  before but kept coming up with an xcuse why I need to get back on them I am married and have 2 young girls...4 and 12.  I want this to be over but its hard especially since my wife doesnt know how to deal with this or how to help me. So...anyone who would like to talk and help support each other would be great. ets help each other kick this nasty habbit for good. Also, any one who can give some  advice to my  wife on here on how to and how important it is to help me would be great. She is VERY upset and really does not want to even talk to me any more, just leaves mealone to deal with this on  my own. I need her and she doenset want to help me. I wish she know that I REALLY need her right now. Please help
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[sd_comedian]

I do have an apt next week to talk to someone  about my broblms, this goes deeper than the addiction and having a pro to talk to and help me will help...a lot I am sure. Also, suprisingly I am having NO cravings...at all. I am just SO EXCITED to get m life and REAL happiness back thats all I need. I also am inspired buy the family I have, I am a lucky guy. I understand my wifes  frustration at first with  me and understand I will need to earn her trust back but I did this do her so I need to fix it..and I will! All of you here are great and as always I thank you for the kind words. By the way, I am not really even taking the detox meds anymore, maybe just to help sleep without the bone and mussle pain but other than that walking and getting out is hard but does make me feel better. NO MORE EXCUSES, NO MORE PILLS ans NO MORE PROBLEMS! I am getting my life back and so happy! Take care all

[weaver71]

If anything will make you believe in a Higher Power than yourself, withdrawal from opiates is it. That's some powerful stuff your witnessing. I agree with the aftercare. It's very important not to forget and have your mind play tricks on you. I have come close to death and so have many of my friends, usually on a relapse. Besides, maybe your story can help another addict have hope. NA, AA, Counseling, or something won't kill you and I suggest going to the same lengths you went to buy drugs and get sober to stay sober. You've been an inspiration. I'm so happy your doing better. Thanks.

[mary577]

Your post brought tears to my eyes.   I am so happy for you that you are doing well and getting your head on straight and your priorities in the right order.   Please check in from time to time and let us know how you're doing.
The people on this forum are amazing, and they have helped me and others so much.   If you ever need support, you know you have come to the right place.   All the best to you and yours!

[sandstone27]

That was a great post sd!  I'm glad that you're doing so much better.  It's only been 8 days - think of how great your go to feel at 30 days!  Now is the time to start seriously thinking about some type of aftercare.  Once you start feeling better is the time that you may start thinking that you've got this under control and one couldn't hurt.  Or the mental part of addiction kicks in and the cravings may start.  I'm not trying to be negative here, I just want to see you continue to succeed.  NA or one on one counseling is a good place to start. Also, make sure you cut any and all ties with your suppliers - including your doctors. This is an important part of staying clean.

I'm glad to read your plans for the future - Disneyland with your kids sounds great - just keep taking care of YOU in the meantime.  

I sent you a note about creating threads in the forum.  If you still have questions about it, just ask and someone will help.  

Very proud of everything you've accomplished....

Sandy ♦

[sd_comedian]

WEll,  day 8 of being clean!  I am feeling so  much  better  and can walk  around again.  NOt for long but  I can do it.  I can also eat  more as well. I did  lose  22  pounds the last 8 days though. bad but not really for me! lol!  I was 228  ans am now 206. SO...I am gonna turn all this negitave  nto a posative  and get myself back into shape as well. Also,  I am  gonna  save the $3500  I was spending each month  on pills,  save that and take my kids to Disney  World for Christmas...It will be a suprise. SO much better being clean!   I dont feel 100%  and I am sure it will  take time..a lot  of time but I am feeling MUCH  better. Get this. I am not a  very Godly person but something happened to me today at the park with my 4 year ols. We walked over ther. Its only a block away. After about   20 min of watchinh  her play and thinking about what I had done I started tearing up, I was just SO happy to see her having so much fun and coming over and huggung me as she played. An older lady about  70 or so came  over to me and said "son  are  you ok?' "  I see tears in your eyes." She was a stranger but sweet and there alone  as I saw her on the bench across from me, I though maybe her grandchild was there but she told be that her father was a pastor and hr husband was as well but he passed away a few months back and they would come to this park every morning to watch gods children play.Anyway, she askes "what is wrong, I see you have a wonderful little girl who keeps huging you and having fun"  I said thats just  it ma'am and I told her all I have been through. he asked me..."may I hold your hand for a min?" I said sure. She did so for about 30 seconds than looked  into my eyes and said this...Jason,  God is with you right now,  he is here helping you and watching over you and your family. I never told her my name, I lost it..I actually felt something, dont know what it was but it was a great feeling and made me happy and cry at the same time. Just thought I would share  this because it was amazing. Again, Thanks to all of you for your support, I am getting better ans have NO cravings other than being a better man for my family.

[mary577]

Yes, please start a new thread.   I looked for this and couldn't find it yesterday.   We're still with you.