The days of "taking the edge off" are over man. You are an addict who can no longer take opiates/narcotics as prescribed.
I am the same way. If I take them,,,,even one,,,,I will abuse them. This is not a theory I'm testing about myself, It's been proven. Opiates/drugs the great stealer of life.... of happinessy....I gave it enough of my life to it...no more,,,,
You will make it...put in the work....its worth it,,,,
Much support
Free~
Those are some huge steps you took, telling your sources to STOP giving you pills and asking your sister for her help. I am not familiar with your whole situation, but why are you prescribed the pain meds? Is it a condition that has pain that could be managed without it, or in a different way? I just know for me, once I crossed that point of no return and got totally addicted, my tolerance sky rocketed and i really couldn't just take a few or what would be a normal prescribed dose. Whenever I tried to limit my intake, It only made it worse for me and actually created pain where there wouldn't have been any had I not been keeping myself in constant w/ds. Not sure why you need it, I was fortunate not to have legit pain, I had only taken pain pills for the sole purpose of getting high. Ugh. Anyways, I really admire how hard you are fighting this, and as long as you don't give up, you will do this!