memory loss

[loveJwhite]

I lost the whole day yesterday...I don't remember it at all..creepy. yesterday I was saying it was day five for me when actually it was six...so today is seven. My husband is all worried because I'm so confused...I'm thinking things that happened yesterday actually happened two days ago.....anyone experience memory loss in withdrawal. Its very bizarre. Anyway today is cussing amazing! It is day seven right?

[loveJwhite]

Well I now know what the memory loss is from....I'm so stoooopid. I'm 9 days off of vicodin, thought all was amazing, but stupid me had 7 ativan and decided to take one or two on wed thurs and fri..I've been taking ativan on an as needed basis since my miscarriage on july 4th...I can honestly say I've never taken more than three a day and it's not something I love or crave ever. This miscarriage threw me for a loop and the anxiety was for real. Anyway, I haven't taken one since Friday, and guess what? I bet you can effing guess. I feel like crap ALL OVER AGAIN. It is ativan withdrawal too isn't it? That is just great. I'm soooo anxious, I'm sweaty, I have a headache, I'm mean and I'm a total idiot.

[gnarly_1]

HI .....The memory ting drove me absolutely crazy...my wife would tell me go in the kitchen to get her something but I would forget what it was b/4 I got there...it got bad enough to start using post it notes to even get simple tasks done...its a normal part of withdrawal and will start to get better with time...good luck and God bless....Gnarly

[dominosarah]

You all can and will get thru this fog~~~~~sara

[loveJwhite]

We can do it. We ARE doing it. So there!

[udoschoices]

Yeah and I've been battling the mental side of it today with little voices trying to rationalize getting "just a few" pills like I used to always. Make it 7 days and through the physical w/d and they pop up like clockwork! Really is 2/3 mental for me...  But I'm focusing on the real pain that would cause me and focusing on going out tonight to a good dinner and spending time with my awesome new girlfriend who knows about my struggle and supports me so not gonna do it!   Had fun seeing my sweet daughter last night and that meant the world to me so I'm thankful for all I have and don't want to mess it up by taking pills that would just make me feel crappy anyway in the end...

Yes, jj- all 3 of us are on the same ride! Hopefully we can all stay on it and be strong...

R

[jjbird]

Can say I am there too. Wow! there is 3 of us on page together at day 7 that I have noticed!! I feel lots better today and have some energy and less anxiety. Now if I can get to the place where I am content in my life again then that would be amazing. That is what I have been dealing with today. And the fact that my hubby still smokes pot and drinks which used to not bother but seems to now. I am hoping one day it wont bother me like it used to not. janet