methadone(i am desperate)

[reza5150]

hi,i have been using methadon for 6 years prior to that i had used opium for 6 or 7 months now i am hooked to methadone,i have been trying to stop it many times but i couldnot succeed,last month i went to detox center and finished the program but as soon as came out of place i was thinking methadone and because i couldnot get methadone that night i got opium instead,before going to detox center i was doing alright i came to my dos to 25mg and excersising almost every day and losing 4 stones and working and i had no more depression but now because i didnot succed i am on 45mg methadone and i am depress and dont work,i have no confidence to do any thing,physically and psycplogically i am shattered,i have tried binging bown my dos it is ok up to 20 or 15 but after that i start panicing and getting bad mod and etc,has anybody been like me who beat this bad habet up or can anybody tell me what else i can do to be free of methadon,i feel i am in prison but biger prison ,i go to pharmacy every day to get my methadone i tried to get once of week but i misused it is it anything else i can do or not to do.
with many thanks reza  

[outlawzmjc]

Hey! i was up to 100mg Methadone for a year, then cut down 10mg every 2 weeks. i got to 40mg and quit it cold turkey. Im now on day 21 without methadone. and i tell you it feels great not to have to rely on TOXIC methadone ****, i dont crave NOTHING anymore. the first few weeks for me were the worst. No Sleep, diarrea, and body aches are worst. methadone takes all the human out of you FOR REAL lol. i feel more like a human being now that im off that ****. Id suggest doing what you wanna do. Do you wanna stay on methadone? if not then just get rid of it. Ive beaten all that garbage. you can too. stay thinking straight, and postive. and do whatcha gotta do. when i first came here on like day 2 or 3, some kind people gave me this link   http://www.medhelp.org/health_pages/Addiction/Methadone-Opiate-w-d/show/437?cid=76  ; Explains quite a bit. If u need anyone to talk to just msg me.

[wildwoodone]

Greetings from across the pond!  I have not had experience with methadone but there are many on here who have and will help you.  You have come to the right placed.  Hang in there are you will receive some responses soon!