day 28, 4 weeks since I drank liquid hand cuffs

[addiction777]

Well 4 weeks later I look back at that first day I desided to poor my drink down the drain and not go back my clinic , first week I so regretted it thinking I should have tapered more but was just too tired to go on with only enough juice to last half the day ! looking back now I'm so glad I did !! I was so happy till the leafs lost last night!!fml!! Even though I've done this before it amazes me how different of a person I am ! my patients is coming back ! My mind is clearer and modivation is an all time high!! for everyone in tears all day and night in pain and suffering please remember , if u just stick through it your day of happiness will come too!!!

[addiction777]

I really do have to keep my guard up! struggled with addiction so much , I think depression seems to come with it ! even though I always have been very upbeat outgoing person , there's always a chance I get hit hard again with depression ! I know I'm going to try harder this time to remember the warning signs of getting off track and stop it before I give up 7 years of being of opiates ! I'm so proud of how I stepped up for my kids and got on track , FACS put the care of my kids with my parents for 5 months till I got clean , It broke my heart ! I think my 2 boys were my extra push to get it together! I'm not going to take advantage of that ever again!!

[neveragainplease]

What FourJays said!!

[FourJays]

Congratulations to you on 28 days clean and your incredible story of commitment to kicking the methadone despite all of the obstacles you have encountered along the way.   It is SO good to hear a story like this; and now you will go on to inspire other people to do the same.  You should be very proud!  Keep it up and don't ever let your guard down.  You have an awesome bright and clean future ahead; and NEVER have to go back.  Thanks for the inspiration :)

[neveragainplease]

Great term to use: "liquid handcuffs". Someone else referred to his addiction as his "dark passenger". All so true. Congratulations in a big way on so many days clean. I'm very proud of you and look forward to being where you are.

[addiction777]

Well 15 years ago I was on methadone, 80mls I tapered of over 2 years , I layed in bed all day and it took 2 months before I got normal sleep, it was hell! I was clean for 7 years and got back on methadone for three and a half years this time I was on 120mls which is the max allowed here in Canada ! going through devorce and house arrest and being on house arrest didn't really look good for my custody battle even though my wife has very serious mental Heath issues I push to come off my meth for the sake of my kids and my health!! everyone told me it was going to be even harder the second time getting off meth specially being on more for longer!! so this time I started working out when I was down to 30mls, I started taking whey protien ! Organic vitamins! And would go play golf or hockey anytime I could sneak off from my house arrest! this time the extra efforts payed off ! I started getting 4 hours sleep by 2 weeks! I feel twice as good as I did the last time in half the time! I've never had any experience with subs , Ive been told there easier to get off but I didn't want to waste anytime getting an appointment and switching !! Detoxing off methadone is very hard and u need to be prepared to go through hell but for some tapering to 1 ml , they seem to be fine , everyone is different! I think in my care IV a half gram off h at a time had my tolerance through the roof and made my detox very hard!! I've had my boys the last three months going through all this so I know how hard it is when u have to go though detox while care for 2 young boys but the few months of struggle was so worth the way I play with my boys again, almost makes me cry thinking about it!! I hope u get off ! it's going to take alot of strenght but if I can do it twice , so can u!!!

[ImAfrayedKnot]

Congratulations. You are an inspiration to me and alot of others in sure. Was it methadone you were on? How long and how much? I'm trying to find a way to get off of it myself but I have no idea which route to chose. Suboxone? Cold turkey?  Slow taper is what I'm leaning towards but they say the suboxone will be alot easier to come off of. I'm terrified of how things are gonna be. I have to work. Take care of a child. All this stuff that I know will be damn near impossible to do in full withdrawal. My hats off to you. Ill have you in my prayers and please do the same for me.

[weaver71]

Love to see these posts. Another testimony, it CAN be done, congratulations on 28 days. If you feel good now, just wait. It gets better, and even the rough days become more rewarding. Keep on keepin on.

[thankx44m]

Congratulations! 4 weeks seems amazing to me right now!

[WODAgirl]

You are correct. Even on the days when I feel down and out....I still find time to be happy. I never did that when I was using. Way to beat this thing. I knew you would!...

Jess

[VICourageous]

Ya!! Way to GO! It does get Better..Time & Patients is our greatest Healer!
Keep on Stepping up..
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