my pill addiction

Question

This is my first day of recovery .   Scared because I dont realize how I can function without a pill....I got to do this

kyle505 · Answer

I agree with dirtydirk - your physical detox (the worst of it) will lessen in about 4 or 5 more days. But, as I said, this is a very dangerous time, as you already know, especially if you got (past tense) pills from a dealer. And remember, "just one" will get you back on that slippery slope. 
You need to let the dealer know that you're done; no more calls - then delete the number. You have to take control now, even though you're feeling like crap. The longer the temptation is there, the more likely you are to relapse. 
I can't say this enough - you are in a very dangerous place right now and need to get rid of the source. Now.
K

dirtydirk · Answer

5-7 days bobby  and u should be on your way 2 success.....at least not feeling like your guna die that is.....keep up the hard work , its truly worth it!!

bobbygood · Answer

I don't have a script I usually get them from a dealer.  I don't want to go back to where I was at it just seems like it's going to be forever to be normal again.  I have had the thought of just one won't hurt so I can sleep but I haven't gone there yet.  my legs are killing me my back my head I feel like I'm having anxiety attacks. hoping this thing don't last too many more days.

kyle505 · Answer

First thing - do you still have access to pills? Do you have a script out there, or refills? Did you get your pills from a dealer?  
I ask because right now you are in a very dangerous place IF pills are available. You have a few days ahead of you when your addict's mind will start screaming at you to get meds..."Just one won't hurt", "You've been through hell and you deserve a little rest", etc., etc.
So, I've got to be honest, if you can get pills you will (in my opinion) relapse. 
Many have been through what you are experiencing. When I started ct two years ago I could not imagine my life without pills - impossible. Now I can't imagine why I waited so long to get clean. Living without meds is wonderful, and that's a promise. 
Good luck.
K

bobbygood · Answer

Thank you day 2 now. Dreading the night.  Wierd not chasing pills today chasing that high. God I need help

Whyme1116 · Answer

Keep going!!!!!!!! It will get better soon!!!!!!!!

bobbygood · Answer

Day 2 last night was allmost unbearable. No sleep at one point I thiught I was going to lose it.  Thank you all for your encouraging words. I just hope the withdrawls dont last long. I have no energy to do anything. I feel so bad right noe

meegWpaw · Answer

hi bobby, so glad you are embarking on this journey!  the first day is scary but now its over, right?  you can do this!  it's hard to imagine how to function without the pills, but each day you will get stronger.  keep going!

motye51 · Answer

Congragulations on your decision to make a better life for yourself! In the end u will be so glad u did this! Do u have the vitamins and foods that will help this process: epsom salts, immodium, a good multivitamin, vit c crystals or emergen c, gatorade, bananas, magnesium, there's a great Thomas taper on this site that has everything listed, find it! Will check in on u tomorrow to see how your doing. Take a big breathe and just keep moving forward!!!!

Amandag78 · Answer

Congratulations on your first day Bobby !!!
Most of us dont think we know how to cope without using a drug. But then we do it and realise the fear was worse than quitting.
Good luck : )

WalkTall · Answer

You'll find a lot of support on this forum. I hope you're determined to quit forever. If so, make sure to protect yourself, from yourself. You'll relapse if you can easily get pills. Cut your sources, flush the pills, tell your most loved-one(s) about your battle, hit-up this forum for tips to ease detox-week, and MOST importantly, have a plan for aftercare and staying-clean. This is a lifetime commitment and journey. Let's do this!!

Livenbfree · Answer

You can do this I had a seven year addiction with Vicodin , and went c/t, if you truly want to stop it is doable, never give up life is more beautiful with out counting pills and being addicted to them. Good luck sweetie.