Quick background of myself.. I'm a 27 year old white male, started abusing coke around 18, didn't stop until I was about 19-20. I started to notice my nose getting messed up a few months into it, but it didn't stop me. I kicked the cocaine habit but still have snorted things througout the years. The damage was very visible to me, and even when I used to do it I would get in one of those coke paranoia trips and stare in the mirrors and obsess over what was happening to my nose. This has caused me ALOT of anxiety and depression over the years. I go through week long phases of not being able to go out of the house or even look people in the eye because I am worried about how I look. I have never even told anyone that I have this obsession, because I am too ashamed of myself and think I will be judged by whoever I told. It also causes me alot more problems than just worrying about how I look. My sinuses are forever clogged. I have frequent headaches, pressure and pain near my eyes, and I'm forever congested. I haven't snorted anything for 60 something days now, and I don't even use any drugs besides my prescribed adderall for ADHD, which I used to abuse but now I take even less than is prescribed for me. I am afraid to sniff anything. I had a recent epiphany about my drug use, I violated probation and spent 3 weeks in jail and 28 days in rehab. I'm clean and loving it, but the anxiety and the other symptoms are holding me back. Who should I go to with my problems? I'm finally realizing that its time, but I really don't know where to go, everytime I wanna tell someone I lose my nerve by the time I get the chance... Thanks in advance for responses
Adam
Long Island NY