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[bettermomma]

Hello everybody, today is day five with no subs and no more needles, but I'm not posting for myself ... there is a member here that needs advice about sub withdrawal. Sub withdrawal, is actually the name of the post, and opiatequeen the poster. Anyway if you all could help her, I would greatly appreciate it. I'm fine, so no need to post here today... and I'm done "kicking myself" as one posted on my post yesterday LOL, but it's ok, this is harsh reality! So check out her post! Thanks - Shell

[phiaNorcoqueen]

wow! you have pretty much summed it up for me.. your words have inspired me.. I don't have the desire to use again either.. But i know i have to stay on guard and talk it out.. So i make sure that little demon doesn't show its stupid face.. Well me and you are pretty much on the same day in our detox.. But i find myself getting lethargic are you feeling like that as well?? and the anxiety is completely life altering .. But i also know that it will pass, and i will come out one the otherside with our heads held high .. Yeah baybay.. cheers to us getting our lives back sweety ....

[bettermomma]

YES YES YES!!!! I feel like a different person. A better person! Today is day 6 and I don't know why, but I don't have any physical or mental desire to use... I have been working out?! I mean this is something completely different from my detox in December ... I have... oh what do you call it? ENERGY! and wow u feel great. There aren't any physical or mental symptoms if withdrawal, and I can't figure out why? Can some one please tell me why this time is so different? Now that I've came clean to my husband and my other loved ones, I don't feel so.... heavy. I love way I feel, but I don't understand where the withdrawal went? I've been taking multi-vitamins along with vit D and 3 different kinds of B vitamins. Could this have been my problem with my last 2 detox cycles? I mean I didn't take anything, and all I wanted to do was die... I must tell you bama and gnarly, your advice and wisdom has officially convinced me (along with my own stubborn pride) that I can do this and I don't have to be my addiction because it was a part of me (that I won't soon forget). What I know now is that addiction makes you believe, that you are defined by it, when actually you aren't. I think it's ironic that we work so hard to get something that you hate so badly, but you're afraid of what? To be sick? It won't kill you! It only makes you stronger! I'm conquering my beast and I can finally taste victory! Let me tell ya, it tastes as sweet as honey! The way I feel now, was worth the hell I put myself thru. Not only because I'll never forget, but because I'm walking out to the other side, and I refuse to crawl anymore. Thanks guys! Again for all you have done for me. I know I did it, along with your inspiration and prayers and I'm grateful for that... so I'll be around, might take a break from here for about 2 days, to spend time with my family who have missed me, but I assure you I'll be back Friday or so... don't worry about me. I've got all grounds covered and doors and windows closed and locked forever. I'm not gonna let this demon reclaim something that doesn't belong to it, I belong to me... forever!

[bama88]

Im so proud of you. Sounds like your looking at this completely different now. And that will make all the difference in your recovery..hang in there..it gets better everyday with everyday comes a new beginning in my opinion. Im so proud you opened up. Don't you feel so much better getting all that stuff off your chest? This is a learning process. A journey into self discovery. And each day you stay clean is a awesome day...your friend bama

[gnarly_1]

attitude is everything when doing this it sounds like you drew a hard line in the sand and your no longer crossing it we all have to get to that point to get well im so happy your going to meetings they really help I got 6yr 10 mo off all the recreational stuff due to meetings it took a wile longer livivng in denile to come off the methadone but im on 821 days for that if a junkie like me can get clean anybody can it just up to the decisions you make and the aftercare you put into it I for one am proud of you you concurred a monster good luck and God bless....Gnarly  

[bettermomma]

I have looked into aftercare, tonight was my first NA meeting, in about 3 weeks or so, but it was exhilarating and exhausting at the same time... although my wd symptoms aren't as bad as before, my body still feels that malaise of detox. I have learned a lot about myself today and most of tonight, and to be quite frank, it's scaring me to death... In NA tonight, I not only was honest about my situation, but I listened to what I was saying along with everyone else... the funny part about all of this (though it doesn't seem funny to many) is that I've never listened to myself at NA before, and tonight as I poured my soul into my heart, so to speak, I honestly have no desire to do or to be the same person that I was before ... I mean don't get me wrong I want to be me again, but I will be more prepared and honest with myself, along with those around me. My detox isn't the same as last time, thank god! So I am more clear minded, to say the least. I now know what my triggers are and where my weakness lies... I am now, not afraid to feel anymore. I want to feel! And that is intensely invigorating! To be able to feel as good as I do mentally, makes me ignore the way I feel physically. So sorry this was so long but I thot you all would like to know my progress. Anyhow, I am completely open for any questions and I'm currently taking my own advice and wisdom, and putting it to good use. Thank you for your support, and I'll keep you updated on my status, so that I'm not letting my own mind "wonder" into the wrong places.
Thanks again - Shell

[sissyg]

Amazing what a day can do, i am so proud of you and inspired that you found that incredible strength.  You truly made my day, thanks!

[dominosarah]

Just make sure you take care of your recovery~~

[gnarly_1]

HEY G irl cudos to you for kicking the needle and sub thats a tuff one to stop but if you want it  bad you can do it now do yourself a favor and get plugged into aftercare both N/A and A/A are free and both programs are good getting clean is the ez part its staying that way that takes the work good luck and God bless.......Gnarly