please help..percocet predicament

[readynow81]

I am so disgusted and mentally over taking percocet. But physically it isn't that easy. Have been taking about 12-14 5/325's for about 10 months. Lesser amounts before that. Have legitimate spine issues but would rather feel that pain than feel like garbage after taking all these pills. It may not be as much as others but its more than enough for me. no easy answer, i know. but ive had enough. suggest telling pcp?

[Lucky2bAlive]

Just a note to everyone I've read so many posts about people flushing there scripts down the toilet. Please return them to the pharmacy and they will dispose of them properly. The medicines that are flushed down the toilet end up in peoples water supply and there are many studies that show traces of every kind of medicine. I hope you are doing better and I pray for your success. Hang in there.

[readynow81]

I just realized that my child is happy and healthy, my house is clean, the dishes are done, laundry is done, dinner is made, everything is ok. It's really ok. And I did it. Just me, no pills to get through the day. I feel good. I'm proud rather than embarrassed. Hell, I think I like this...  :)

[readynow81]

To Laurel: Thanks so much! I really do appreciate you and your help, and believe me, you are helpful! I can't believe I haven't said congratulations to YOU yet, silly me...wrapped up in my own little world, LOL!  So yes friend, you are awesome!
And I really am looking forward to my appointment. I want so badly to look my doctor straight in the eye and say " no thanks. I'm done with that garbage."  That will feel better than any high!   I thank God that I am feeling as well as I do. I know that staying positive is key. So last night when I could hear myself getting a little " grouchy" I guess u could say, I went in the bath tub, listened to music and just let it go. I can't blame this on my family. It's me that got me here. They love me. I don't wan to take it out on them. thankfully i have a supportive husband who will "take over" when he comes home from work so i can have an hour or so to calm down and collect my thoughts. im SO lucky. and just think... i could have ruined it if i continued with pills. who knows where that road would have lead me. good news is, im NOT LOOKING BACK!
i know what you mean about some people being upset about not getting alot of responses. ive seen it written a few times. the way i see it, if people respond, great. it helps. but i started posting more for myself. it helps me be honest and to vent.i did tell one person that its not about the quantity of replies u get, more about the quality. i find myself trying to read and reply to others posts because i feel like it helps me stay focused and gives me strength. i also learn alot. But in the end, you are right. We each have to fight the fight for ourselves. Support is wonderful, but its our responsibility.
WOW!!! Sorry for rambling!!! I hope you have a great night, and I will be sure to fill you in after my appointment! Thanks again!   :)    .... jessie

[laurel453]

This is the way :) keep reminding you that you will get better !! What you did was the best thing to do... anxiety is bad enough itself but if we take some steps like trying to relax in a hot bath, reading, breathing deeply and doing this sort of things.... at least we don't make it worse :) and this is a big step now... doing everything we can to do things better... not the opposite.

You've got a great attitude, ready ... you are the awesome one not me.  I mean, i read from time to time people that complain because they got few responses when it is not true and they have got a lot of answers...my admiration goes to the people who don't get as much responses but kept commited on this decision... support is a help but attitude is much more than a help, it will be your best friend now :) support from people will come but your attitude is great !

Be ready for the mental battle... face it the same way you are facing those days This too shall pass :) follow a healthy diet, this is very important, a protein rich one... vegs, fruit , maybe some whey protein shakes... rest is important and exercise too.

Good luck tomorrow !

[readynow81]

@Laurel: I woke up today in a pretty good mood, no headache, but legs are sore. Feels like I ran a marathon!! Last night wasn't so great though. I had a horrible attitude, I was grumpy and rude. And had more anxiety than the other days. But I kept reminding myself that it'll get better, I took a hot bath and  read till I was able to doze off. I hope tonight is a little less intense, emotionally, anyway . Physically I think I've been lucky.... knock on wood. But I'm staying with it. I don't want any pills. My doctors appt is tomorrow. telling het everything. no more prescriptions for me!!! i hope u have a good day, and thanks again. youve been awesome! :)

[laurel453]

How are you doing today ? :)

days 3 and 4 are usually the worst so don't get discouraged if you are not feeling very well today , this too shall pass :)