psychiatrist

[Dane74]

I have a wonderful therapist (psychologist) who i trust and making progress, i have been with her for almost a year now.  But because she cant prescribe meds she wanted me to see a psychiatrist, so off i went and she was a freak, but i really didn't care i was just going to get Zolft, not a big deal you talk for 15 minutes and your out of there.  Well, she discharged me as a patient at my 2nd visit, told me that she cant help me and others are more qualified for me.  WOW, i must really be a freaking head case!!!!!  So today i go to another one, also a quack, she made me feel like i am worth 2 cents and i felt like a drug addict and just a head case. She was so hard on me, wanted to know all about me in a hour session and shows zero support or recognition or simply put no  sympathy for anything.  She was brutal, and then after the session she was like i wanted you to hear yourself talk thats why i asked you difficult questions!!!! WTF, i don't even know her or developed a relationship with her yet.  Then she said the Zolft is useless because i drink, but she will prescribe it to me anyway.  So, after 2 attempts i am done with those docs.  I will just stick with my therapist and see if i can get my primary care doc to prescribe me zolft.  What happened to being supportive and encouraging, i walked out there feeling like a loser.  Im struggling here, i really am, my head will not stop thinking of the past BS, the depression is back on, and of course the anxiety.  Here i am almost 9 months and still feel like crap.  I just want to be happy, i want to smile, i want normalcy, is that to much to ask?

[dominosarah]

No i dont want to scream at you.  I am not sure anything i could say right now will change your mind anyways.  You have yourself convinced and this is something you have to figure out yourself.  All i will say is i hope you figure it out soon cuz i cant even begin to tell you the he!! that alcohol creates.  You think you danced with the devil before~

[Dane74]

Ok sara, you are probably right!  Need or want bottom line i still lean on the crutch.  I am still learning how to deal with life on lifes terms and getting to the root, with all that going on, i am just so overwhelmed.  I am not ready to let go of that mask i put on, one day i will, i just need more time and help.  I am still a work in progress, even though i made it almost 6 months i still have allot of work to do.  I have to learn how to change up my thinking, i need coping skills, all these things i am very well aware of and thats why I'm in therapy. Please dish it out give it to me, i know you want to just scream at me right now....

[dominosarah]

You dont "need" that crutch, you still "want" it.......

[Dane74]

Thanks guys, i have a plan in action, lets see how i do. But the "crutch" i feel i do need, that is the weak part of me, but i am fighting it.

[dominosarah]

I was a slave to whiskey so i do understand.  I would have a cup of coffee in the morning and switch to whiskey and that is what i drank all day long, 7 days a week.  You dont need a crutch anymore......

[Dane74]

I'm trying Sara, it's not that easy!!!!

[dominosarah]

Put down the drink.........

[vicki595]

GIVE ME THEIR NAMES!

   GRRRR....

[Pat1956100]

Oh you got me reliving my experience with therapists.  I know sometimes they deliberately try to upset you to get you talking but not on the first visit.  That must have been brutal.
So sorry you had to go through that.

[magnoliaooo]

You got this!!!!!!!!!!  I have total faith in you!!!!  

[Sonrissa]

Yes! And please don't give up! There are wonderful Psychiatrists out there! I've been to a few! You will find one and they will help you so much! Hang in there!

[Teresa1717]

Make sure they are big ones!! The balls I mean! :) lol Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and move forward!

[Dane74]

Thanks guys, it just hurts that i am just coming to grips with my past BS and still obviously not comfortable at all discussing it, no less with a stranger, and a cold one at that.  But you know what its over with now, i will not go back and that is that, its time for me to get some balls and just move on, so thats what i am going to do.........

[Sonrissa]

Wait a minute! You got fired by your Psychiatrist? OMG! That is almost funny!

I'm so sorry Dane! Please don't give up hope! It may take a few before you find one you can connect with! It is certainly NOT too much to ask for! I am at a loss for words, and that in itself is a miracle! I simply do not understand how a Psychiatrist can treat someone like this! Especially on your first visit? Do not let this get you down or deter you from your goal! Keep your chin up and stay strong! This is just a small bump in your journey! Big hugs!!

[Bkitty]

My primary doc prescribes me my meds too. :/ Sorry you had to go thru all that. I have never seen my psychiatrist-I always saw the NP. She wwould just nod and write stuff an occasional  ,,,"Hmmm". I love my therapist though she challenged me recently and Im still pouting. Love Ya Sis! (((hugs)))~Bkitty

[Teresa1717]

It is NOT too much to ask and you are absolutely right in that she asked you to many tough questions too quickly!! I have just started seeing mine a few weeks ago and she is JUST now getting into some of those same issues with me. She said its VERY important to build trust with someone first before just diving into their deep, dark places!! I am so sorry you have had the bad misfortune of seeing two horrible people like these! I think you should stick with who you trust and talk to your GP about meds. Shame on them for making you feel like this and without even knowing you first!

Dont lose hope in this! I know how important therapy can be so just dont close up and let all the work you have done, go to waste because of 2 idiots!

Im really sorry you had such a bad day :(