scared of withdrawals

[knockout29]

HELLO GUYS...i am a 29 year old woman and i addicted to pain pills..i started taking them a few years ago because i was in an abusive relationship and the pills helped me mellow out and really clear my mind..i let go of the relationship but kept taking the pills because i was use to and wanted to feel that "high" to keep my calm...i can work and function normally on the pills and to be honest i actually felt like they helped me...i stopped takin them cause i got pregnant and didnt know if i was having withdrawals or not because of the nausea, vomiting, and sleeping i was doing from the pregnancy..a few years ago i had a baby via c section and the dr gave me 30 oxycodones..i ran through those pills within a week because i was missing that high..my aunt gave me a bottle she had when she had a baby and i again ran through that bottle..to make matters worse i had to have gallbladder surgery two months after giving birth and again the dr gave me more pain pills..its been two years and now i feel like i have to have them to function right...i have withdrawled from them twice in that last year but after a month later i was back on them...im to the point that i want to stop because thats the first thing i go buy when i get pain...in the beginning 10 pills would last me a week or so but now it wouldnt last me 2 whole days...the reason i still take them 1, is because i know im addicted and 2 im scared of the withdrawals..i havent been sober long enough since i had my daughter to even know how to function without them...and with me being a single mother i dont think i can actually take care of my children properly while going through withdrawals...i need help...im actually scared to tell my family doctor because i think she is going to tell dhs and have my kids taken away...maybe its just me but i dont want to take that chance..someone please help...

[UnsureMS]

Well, I am not sure about your area but there is one really good local church here that helps families. They even help take care of the kids while you are withdrawing. Keep me posted... and I pray good is with you.

[Norco1947]

Hi KO ,
Have you tried to taper your dose down ? It helps to reduce the dose before jumping . Even cutting your dose by 10-15% every 5-7 days will get you to the point that jumping is Do able , I was at (10)  10mg Norco a day for months , Tried to go Cold turkey went 3 days crying & wanted to die . I gave up a started a taper plan . Yes tapering  is still hard but not nearly as tuff as CT. I tapered for 3 1/2 weeks then quit . First 3-5 days is still tuff but way better the CT . Now on Day#15 pill free & feeling better every day ......   Post questions for help and to pass hard times . go hour by hour for the first 100 hours from there it should start to get  better . Try to eat drink water & take tons of Vit's , I drank Ensure when i just could not eat much really helps but costs a lot.  
Your young and will recover fast Stay strong for your self & kids . Your on your way to a new better life without pills ... Ron

[Bunny78]

Yes, withdrawal ***** but being an addict ***** even more. Your addicted brain is telling you that you need these pills to function normally. Truth is, you'll function better without them. Take your life back now. 4 days of being miserable is worth it in the end. Look into vitamins and supplements to take, they were a life saver for me. Think of it like the worst flu you could imagine having but remind yourself that it does get better. Believe in yourself. Be a fighter for yourself and your children.

[knockout29]

thanks...im going to see if i can find some support groups in my area...i am very afraid of the withdrawals..

[knockout29]

thanks for the encouragemnt

[UnsureMS]

It is hard going through with drawals on your own, I have seen many family members try to. But I want to say you are doing the right thing by your children, if you are truly wanting to stop your use. You really need to find a support group, people you can count on to help you through this. The support group needs to be in your area. As long as you don't have your kids in harms way, and are still being a good mom...you should be able to find help without getting your kids taken from you.

A place you may try is somewhere that helps woman that were in abusive relationships, since this is where it all started at. Also, if you believe in God some churches can help, and most don't ever want t split up families. I would research online, and see whats in your area.

Whatever you decided don't give up on getting help!!! Believe in yourself and trust you can do this. Remember who are doing it for, and stay motivated becuase your children need you. Good Luck, and I hope this was of some help. May God be with you.

[cleanguy]

I think most of us were terrified of the withdrawals... i know I was. This is my second time around with trying to stop. Last time, i did zero research did nothing to prepare, no follow up and lasted only 3 weeks. You are doing the right thing by reaching out ahead of time.

You will read about the symptoms... unfortunately they are true. However, knowing others conquer this mess is critical, because we all have the power within ourselves to do this.

Arm yourself with the knowledge and stories of this board. Wise people who have been where you are. Look up the Thomas recipe. When symptoms pop up ask what helped and you will get a starting point of what could work.

Sending positive mojo your way!