scared scared scared

[bama88]

hey world wide web friends...im getting ready and had my morning panic attack ritual. im shaking like a leaf....so scared. i hope and pray i can walk in three days. god help me. another surgery another bottle. another surgery another detox ....im gonna change my name to detox queen of the universe. yep. i am. so no more bama....detox queen....yep. i am going to tell Dr. to put my name on the room in or. its gonna stay reserved. that way i won't have to wait two weeks. oh and out of two weeks of acl tear...i have 22 out of 38 percs left....how's that for improvement....take that devil drugs....i have actually thought of telling anesthesia to keep me awake...numb me waist down. but the thought of that....with no tv to watch is not happening..i have one request from all of you please.....make today count....if i can stop you can stop. if i can stop you can stop. if i can walk in this pain...you can stop. if i can have all my favorite pills and not take...you can not take...yes its hard...nothing worthwhile is easy. but the truth is easy as not taking a pill.

[Sarah11212]

Praying for you this morning Bama.

You can do this!

xoxo

[vicki595]

Is there any way you can make this less of a torturous existence??  LOL

having the pills there in front of you is just too hard! Do you have a friend or a neighbor who can hold them for you when you get home from the surgery? If not, just go with this and except it Bama...it's just a little blip in time. Keep posting, especially after the surgery. That will help you get your mind off of this and please don't start freaking out now!  This is all a GOOD thing...you're getting fixed and getting it all behind you!  I'm here if you need to talk...K?