struggling with patience right now

[poisonarrow]

i'm really struggling today. i'm so glad i've stuck this out, but today i haven't made much progress. it's causing me to crave. i have a NA meeting lined up tonight, and i hope that will help. i'm trying to stay distracted the best i can. i'm thankful for all the small improvements....they feel huge, but today i feel like i've gone back a day or two. i need some encouragement here. i don't want to give in. i've come too far.

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[poisonarrow]

thanks for the encouragement guys. yesterday was a low day for me. i think it was a result of not getting any sleep the night before. i slept for 7 hours last night and feel a lot better today. i will keep moving forward...no looking back, focusing on just today. i'm still early in this and it's gonna take a while to heal.

my head i assure you is in the right place. it's so nice to have a place to turn when you're down. and the fact the people actually know what the hell you're talking about.

i have a very busy weekend lined up. i'm moving by the 31st and packing like crazy, going to a show tonight, and tomorrow is my birthday. my granny flew in from from florida. i haven't seen her in 2 years. gotta stay busy! thanks again everyone.

c

[Cissy373]

Hang in there it does get better. I feel any clean time not worrying when to take my next pill, when I will run out, etc; is a lot to be thankful for.

Truly it feels so good to just worry about what I am cooking for dinner, things like that..........normal daily life things......not worrying about some demon pill that was destroying me.

Cissy

[openmydesire]

I feel for you!!! Stay strong! When you feel the desire to use think about how you feel when you come down! And the parnoia! sp?

[gnarly_1]

HI just want to take a minute to encourage you.....detoxing often goes like that 1 step forward 2 steps back but just know you are getting better each day even if it feel like your moving backwards its late in your part of the country....he ll its getting late here I hope your sleeping but if you still cant sleep and your up I hope this encourages you to keep pushing forward hang in there everybody gets days like this good luck and God bless....Gnarly

[j34]

Now that is what I like to hear gratefulness and hope,you know those are spiritual princliples , so now you have done the good thing turned a negative into a positive and that my friend is freedom!! Suggestion.. start a journel and write about this event ,cause i can guarantee you will benifit from it when the disease starts talking to you agian you can pull the journel out and read how you handled a situation so well AND without using !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what a great day

[poisonarrow]

you know what....you're right. i HAVE made progress. i'm clean another day and that is something i should be proud of. thanks for the perspective. i just have to keep telling myself this didn't happen overnight, it's not going to get better overnight. the list is a good idea. haven't thought of it. i would have given in days ago if it weren't for this forum. thanks so much.

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[j34]

What do you mean you havent made much progress! You are clean today and reaching out!! what an accomplishment.There is a saying easy does it....breath in breath out and my suggestion is write a gratitude list,for me this includes being clean, having a job, roof over my head, hot and cold water coming out of a tap,havign all my body parts....these are just a few that help me .Anyday clean is a success. I know for myself I want everything now at times and forget to live in the moment and in the beginning of my recovery especially I had to break it down  at times,ie 24 hrs, so 8hrs I will be sleeping so that left 16 hrs,,,, have to eat 3 x s a day,there is another 3 hrs , a meeting ,then coffee , you know what I mean I had to literally live in the 24 hr period, sometimes just minutes at a time, sharing how I feft helped me tremedously cause now I understand this has given me strength  I hope this has helped you. Blessings j34