hey folks....how is everyone...i kinda know...have been reading,,,posted a few support for some,,,i have been struggling with a few (dozen)things...i was trynig to make sure that this is not life straight and these are everyday problems but have been so high i have not noticed but they are not,,,this is just me and karma doing battle....seems karam has a big file on me and has decided to do paybacks at my weakest...i forget who i told but if i knew who karma was i woulda had him(her) wacked.....guess karma lost the file of all the good i've done in my life.....it seems that i am going to fast for everything...nothing seems to be able to keep up to the speed i'm at..docs,insurance,rehabs,nothing man,,,,so i've decided to slow down....evrerything else has fallen appart to...i've been rolling around in my snow covered driveway trying to fix my car,,,,it did not even roll backwards in neutral,,,had to drag it outa the driveway with a truck....snappin ropes blah blah....anyway now i am driving a car that has no reverse,,,,putin neutral to go forward?..opi's world....doh!.....i figured i'd put my other car on the road and got it all set up..turn key and all power blew...(took 2 hours to find the key)after preppin car for 2 hour...wtf....oh god of oxy's where are you now?...so that failed,,,guna get my nerves together and try the grand prix again,,,if not i have one more vehice in the driveway,,,,volkswagon westfalia camper van...yes a hippie van,,,i like to call the heat mobile at this point.....when 13 year olds are yellin peace man ya know you are in the wrong vehicle when under house arrest,,...it has been a constant barrage of tests for me ii think i've passed...maybe showed a lil weakness but man...i'm just a guy,,,,oh,,,i've had to turn down work this week due to ham poisoning and a car that only has drive...i am in the entertainment biz and nothing is in town so i can't point my hunk-0-junk that way and hope for the best..w/my luck some dumbazz will get me into a situation and i'll have to back up....without a truck pulling,,it won't go that way.....hmmm arg.....so today is a new day....i am staying calm....not dealling with to much or i'll break lke a lil girl.........i asked the woman if there is a god and now he is paying attention to me and entertaining himself or is it karma....i just don't know....the only hting i'm guna do today is beg for emplyment insurance so that i can get into a 3 week day program....then i'll go work my arse off...but i do think i need the 3 weeker before i get weaker......the mental game is on big time..oh..i am going to try to get the grand ***** going to...this should all flow well right?....right?!!!!!!!...i need way more cowbell man....ps...i must hold the record for the most removed posts....is there a prize for this?...i have posted but they get ditched quick......i need help to medhelp!