Hello... you know, the worst part of quitting is all the THINKING we do before we quit. It will drive a person nuts! Just block off 5 days and jump. I must say that day 3 is the worst. Day 5 is much better. My life saver was a small little heating pad... the legs will really ache and that pad was a life saver. I also ate alot of ice cream and corn dogs. SOOOOO, stock-up on CORN DOGS! Good luck and you can do it. 90% mental after day 5... 1-4 is sort of tough but kind of fun. Think of it as an adventure and have fun during the WD... I tried but it did not work for me... but, perhaps the "having fun" will work for you. We all react different to stopping pain meds. remember corn dogs... the frozen ones at Walmart in the 12 pack. GO DO IT!
ughh I am going to try. Maybe I should just tell my boyfriend to do go do it, then it will really get done. I feel like such a loser. Who can't flush pills? I am so weak.
Honey....flush those pills! we love flushing parties around here!! lol i flushed my last 20 or so...i had to, when you are feeling bad they will just be there calling out to you....flush them now before you even thing about it...they aren't enough to even taper with..so i say get rid of them....i KNOW it's a scary thing...and it feels like a safety net right now...but if you don't do it now...when will you get another few days off to recoup? so now is the time....If you take them, it's just prolonging it. Go for it girl! i wanna hear that swooshing sound!! LOL
I will be honest, I still have 10 pills in the drawer next to my bed. At first I got my pills from a dealer I knew of on the street, then he went to jail. My boyfriend never wanted to get me the pills because he did not want to aid my abuse, however, when my dealer went to jail, he began getting them for me because living together, he saw how sick I would be when I did not have them. Also, I would make him feel bad for me and manipulate him into getting them for me. He knows tomorrow is the day I stop for good. He has told me he will not get me the pills no matter how hard I beg and plead. I am too scared to get them on my own anymore because they have really cracked down on drug activity in my area..so I know that fear will keep me from going out and finding them. I certainly wont risk my school and future for 10 years in jail for the pills anymore. I should go flush the pills down the toilet right now. I don't know what is stopping me. Tomorrow is my day. I have to do it. I need to flush the pills. I know I do. Why do I still feel like holding on?
i'm sorry hon...try not to stress over it....just think of it as a wonderful thing you are doing for yourself....a few days of feeling bad is so worth it! Just believe and trust in yourself....you are stronger than you think. Do you still have access to any pills? that will make it much harder to stay clean if you have access....i'm glad you have a few days off...that way you can just relax and not worry about anything but getting better....i promise if you stick with it, you will be so happy you did!!
Thanks so much for your post and support. It is a small world! I am not too far from Amory. I am just sitting her biting my nails thinking about tomorrow. I wish I could just distract myself from thinking about it right now.