tooter getting clean

[tooter212]

Just trying to hang in there Still on day 6

[tooter212]

Pat, my energy is slowly coming back. If it wasn't for the foot pain I would be doing a lot more. I walked further than I have before and more times today. But for the mental part, I need help, I ordered liver & onions at a new restaurant today!!! It's the first time I ever had to have a piece of gum to get rid of the taste before!!! lol  God Bless

[Pat1956100]

Hi Tooter
Glad to see you are doing so well..  How is your energy?  I always had a tough time with that.

[tooter212]

thank you anle, don't mind the tearing up, Haven't cried in I don't know how long. Think it might be good for the soul. May have to go to waterproof mascara though when I start wearing it again. lol

[ariley13]

Great job Tooter!!! :)  Keep on rockin' and rollin' my friend. Sounds like you are through the worst of the physical part and starting with the mental/emotional part of healing. Tearing up, crying, irritability, and anger are all normal. It sounds like you have a very healthy, accepting attitude towards the process and a very positive attitude overall. That will help you so much in this battle. Stay strong my friend. Keep posting. We are here for you all the way!

[ricart70]

You may not be hitting post a comment .I forget to sometimes and then I go to another thread and later realize my comment had "disappeared" lol
Glad you are making it !!     You are doing great although probably not feeling great ;)

[tooter212]

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[tooter212]

Ricart!!!!!!!!!!!!! Good to hear from you!!!!!!! You were the first one to answer me. Thank you and all the guys! Well for the first time in  a loooooooong time I'm finely feeling again! I've been tearing up at movies!! It's good to feel again!

[ricart70]

You are doing great tooter !!!   Hang in there and you will soon be free ;))

[tooter212]

Jac, you need to listen to your Dr. I go to feeling sorry for myself ever so often and the people here pick me up. I think I'm through with the physical part of W/D I'm on day 8. If I can do it you can!!! Just stay on here and listen to all the support you get, it truly helps. God Bless you.and hey Dominosara, the cheese cake sounds good!!!!!!!!!

[jac1217]

Could you please tell me if you are still having withdrawal 's? What kind are they and how bad is it?? Your doing it Cold turkey which I am afraid of so I am coming off them slowly. I am under a Dr's care for my prescriptions and afraid I would have seizures if I did do it C/T. I had seizures when I came off of Xanax even though the Dr helped me. I came off of it within a month but took 3 mths to actually recover. I am now addicted to Hydro and Oxy for my arthritis so I am doing it very slow.......Thanks and your doing a great job!!

[dominosarah]

Get yourself thru this detox and then down the road work on the ambien.  You dont want to overwhelm your brain and body.  Dont worry about your hair either!!!  Hold your head high and be proud of what you are doing.

Lunch?  I had blueberry cheesecake!!

[tooter212]

Thanks, I needed to hear that now. I'm such a perfectionist that  I can't get it through my head that I'm 8 days clean as long as I'm taking ambien!!!!  I swept my floors. Going to get dressed. Hubby will be back soon to go to lunch

[nursegirl6572]

I just wanted to add a few cheers too!  Way to go! You're doing awesome!  :0)  Keep up the great work!  You're in great hands here!

[tooter212]

Well it's day 8 !!!!!!!!!!!! I'm doing a lot better. The depression is what's killing me. Vic, I've been letting the color go away on my hair. Look strange with salt a pepper hair. lol  Going for my driveway walk. God Bless

[VICourageous]

Keep on Rocking Tooter..I was 56 when I came clean..I have developed more Grey hairs in this last year..BUT I have the light back in them eyes and the skin and hair shines again..Just like the Soul is so happy to be alive again..We have just opened a new Life..A good one from here on..
Bless

[Sonrissa]

Hi tooter! Congrats on one whole week! You made it! I hope that when I am your age I have the strength, courage, and good humor that you do! Keep moving forward! It should get physically easier from here on out! Hugs!

[tooter212]

Hey DJ, I was just feeling sorry for myself, It does get better day by day! Like someone else said, "If it didn't there would be no recovered addicts" Just hang in there and WE'LL be one!!!!! Starting my second week sounds great!! As for as the scars, it just tells us how lucky we are to have  survived.

[DJwoods]

Congrats on day 7.  I myself am on day 5.  Are you feeling better day by day? I'm anxious about each new day.

[dominosarah]

My scars are more like road maps!!!!

[tooter212]

Dominosarah, I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I get to thinking at 71 why put up with this pain. (feet and legs) I had surgery for clogged arteries a few yrs ago and it's back. 70% blocked. I'm getting to where I can't stand the pain any more. A nurse said during W/D pain was more intense.  I'm taking advil every 3 hrs. and using biofreeze gel. It helps the burning. I'm going to make another appointment with Vascular  Dr. tomorrow and see if he can fix it. He already knows about it. I have a nerve stimulator implanted and he said it would help my circulation. lol Now I sound like a old woman. Just a minute and I'll show you my scar. lol  My skin is looking better too. And my hair. I think we have set backs ever few days. But hey, 7 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[dominosarah]

When i look in the mirror now i see a person with wrinkles, laugh lines and grey hair peeking thru.  That is okay with me as it all tells my story.  The best part about all of that is i see me, with bright blue eyes that dance on my face, that are no longer bloodshot.  I dont have bags under my eyes that hung to my chin.  I see color in my skin, not the elephant color i had for so many years.  I see healthy hair that shines.  You see, i see all of this cuz i am clean and have been given a 2nd chance at life.  I am grateful every single day to wake up and make good choices.  I am 52 yrs old and life is just beginning for me~

[Teri9498]

AWESOME Job on your 1 whole week!!!..that is HUGE!!! xxoo :)

[tooter212]

Oh Dominosarah, did I ever need to hear that. I still think of myself as 40 or so and here's this old woman looking back. Even as bad as I feel , I still don't feel like an old person. My husband is young at heart as well so I feel like I'm dragging him down. I still have real pain as well. Be glad when I get past the intense feelings. On the bright side I'm 7 days closer

[dominosarah]

We like you tooter and soon you will see why we do.  I had to look in the mirror many times a day and make eye contact with the person looking back.  A few weeks later i had to smile at that face.  Hardest thing ever but it worked.