pleeaaase help me

[XemptyXpromise]

im 15 years old and have been smoking pot for about a year.about 5 months ago i began smoking very often,just about everday and sometimes more than once a day.i would occasionaly have panic attacks but i had one about 4 months ago that was very severe..i was barely able to stand and thought for sure i was dying.i could not sleep for nights after that and was constantly shaking uncontrollably.i continued to have panic attacks everyday for
the next week and was unable to even get out of bed.i finally went to the hospital and was told that it was just anxiety.my dad does not know that ive ever smoked and so i did not mention it to the doctor.ever since that time i have not felt right.i often get panic attacks and have many symptoms at all times.some of those are shaking,migraines,muscle twitching,all over body pains, trouble sleeping,shortness of breathe,pounding heart,tingling skin and feeling my pulse all over,depression,feeling like im about to pass out,anger,eye pressure and the feeling that my heads going to explode,and many vision problems such as sensitivy to light(halos around lights and rays that come off from them),after images,and double vision of bright objects.(i had my eyes checked in the past week but was told they are perfectly fine)i also very often feel like im in a dream and nothing is real.i am at a point in my life where im terrified of dying although i never was before and at times im worried that im going crazy even though i know im not.i can barely make it through a day of school without going to the nurses to lay down for about an hour.is this really all just anxiety or is it something more?

[XemptyXpromise]

yeah ive actually gone through alot and had some anxiety most of my life so i wasnt surprised when they told me that was the problem.
i dont really plan on taking medications and i used to go to counseling and just back into it so hopefully that will help.
i really needed reassurance so thank you for your help

[kim715]

Hon I am not a doctor,but I am a mother who has 2 children[21 and 18] who suffer from anxiety.I can tell you that a lot of the symptoms that you listed are things that my children experience when they are having an anxiety attack.My 21 year old has been on medication in the past to help her with this.My 18 year old refuses to take the meds,but he has been in therapy before for it,my 21 year old has as well.In therapy they learned some coping skills and some techniques that help them through whenever an attack does come on.I think you really need to talk to your parents about what is going on so that they can assist you to get the help you need.You're only 15 years old hon,you should be enjoying life,not suffering like this.I don't know much about pot so I can't comment as to whether or not that is playing a role as to whats going on with you.Perhaps you are smoking the pot as a way to self medicate.I can tell you as a parent,but more importantly as an addict,thats not a wise decision.There are many if us here who used drugs to self medicate instead of addressing our problems head on and in doing so left a path of destruction and loss in our lives as well as the lives of our loved ones.Talk to your parents hon.Therapy has done wonders for my children.They both lead happy productive lives now that they've gotten their anxiety problems under control.All the best.....Kim

[SophieShine]

Hi, Welcome to the forum!
Weed is a mood enhancer so not a good idea when you have anxiety.
All the symptoms you describe are anxiety symptoms. Did something change in your life lately? Do you have more pressure on you?
If you can go see your doctor alone and let it all out. Anxiety has got to be treated, but watch out for the pills some doctors prescribe, most of them are far more addictive then the pot you're smoking. You don't want to get hooked to those at your age, believe me.
I'd go on the therapy path, but that's me.
And talk to your parents about it if you can.
Please keep us informed. xxx. sophie.