well here i am again!!! Sh%T !!!

[steve1220]

well after a 5 yr addiction on Oxys i finally got off them i was clean for over 100 days !! living with the pain when my dr. said i should get back on them thought i could control the addiction just 3 mo later here i am running out early again !!! it gets harder and harder every time I'm sick.....i'm tired of the pills....and i'm tired of feeling like this !!! wish my God would take me back home !!!
     with love Zona desert Steve

[otoh]

hey steve.. you've got to be kidding ! a 100 days is never wasted , you know you can do it. take it from a lifetime addict, that has had 12 yrs under her belt at one time. I'm back on day 17 from subs. I'm so pissed off at having things control my life.. I'll do this if it kills me. and you my friend can to !!!. I am rootin for you .check in and spend all day, like I have to for now. a siow taper will be easier, but if you must jump. get some supplies.

[TiredinTempe]

Good job Steve..you can kick this, you did 100 days before.

[hampstead]

When you taperd off how much did you cut back each day

[steve1220]

thanks sweetie.....yep been here before i'm 48hrs in and the creepy crawlers have just started !!! the worst part for me is not being able to sleep !!! the doc talked me back on this only back on them for 3 mo now but stevie's talkin now !!! dont expect this to last to long
     with love zona steve

[selfinduced]

Hey Steve, Been wondering how you've been. So sorry your knee deep in this mess again. You know the drill, you've done this before and will do it again. You needed to be where you were to get to where you need to be. Nows the time! The longer out in recovery you are, you'll be better equipt to turn pills away. Glad you jumped back on board. We are all here for you!!!!

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

I've been missing ya heaps i was hoping my zona man was kicking butt sorry the pain is bad huni r u done again mate i want to be the pain is to much to live with i hope ur not to bad dear friend keep un touch please ya girl in oz Aj

[steve1220]

G-DAMMMM my Ausi girl !!~sorry to hear your having a having a hard time too i think bout ya all the time !!!get back with ya soon crazy but....you be the Ozy girl always
     love always zona Steve

[fpvfembacktobreakfree]

Hey my zona man I've missed my mate Im sorry ur doin it hard it seems to be happening to us all Im on day 3 like u brother ran out early my partner been holding them for mths now but i found stash Im right there with ya mate stay strong biggest hugs n love huni Aj xoxoxoxo

[steve1220]

Oh Yeah ....I can be proud  of ya !!!and you shoulde too girl please hang in there you'll do this

[smiles4eva]

Nope don't be proud of me I haven't made it past 9 days.  Detox #4 is right around the corner and it WILL be my last!  We will do this!

[steve1220]

hey smiles i remember you and i came on here at the same time !!! I am SOOOO proud of you for staying clean wish me luck girl.......
    your friend Zona Steve

[steve1220]

thanks all ....words from everybody does help it's what got me through it last time !!! just woke up from a hard nap wow !!! on day two sleeping !!! thats a first !!!
   with love zona Steve

[Norco1947]

You can do this , I am 65 and going thru Day #6  Off Norco addiction . Wanted it to end just like you . Tried CT that's when i wanted to die , cried for 3 days . Gave up CT and started tapering Then hour by hour day by day it's been 3 1/2 weeks now and i am starting to feel better , Maybe even pretty good compared to what i felt like for months needing pills . Today is the best i felt in so long , sure my energy is low , my tummy is still a bit achey , body still shakey just a little . Today i found i was hungry for the first time in weeks , Went to the store for more Vit's and found myself smileing and enjoying talking to other people . just about 30 days ago i felt i wanted to die . WoW  

Get your self a good plan to Taper , I got way better advise from these posts then from my Dr.

Think better about yourself starting day #1 Taper  YOUR ON THE WAY .
Go as slow as needed cut the dose and wait till you adjust . No need to be in bad W/D thru taper . Yes you will feel crappy but won't die .
when you get to a lower dose the W/D should be less when you do jump.

By the way when you get your head back will you still like the Faiders  .     Ron                                                                                                              

[smiles4eva]

Steve I have thought about you so many times. You disappeared and I was hoping you had kicked it and  just moved on.  You made it over 100 days, WOW!  I just wanted to say congrats and offer you encouragement on your final detox! Make this the last one.  The pain ***** but living the life on pills and being sick and tired of them ***** more right!?

[dominosarah]

Minnesota!!

[steve1220]

thanks Kyle.... yea i'm a 47+ year addict from weed to coke to a 10 yr run of useing and making that crap !! if i could stop that and the MONEY i can do this tooooooooo

thanks again zona Steve

[steve1220]

dom you got that right ill make this !! what part of the world ya from?

[dominosarah]

From one Raiders fan to another......We dig deep and we keep fighting~

[kyle505]

I'm an older addict too. I have a wife and kids (17, 19, 23). I told them everything. All the lies. I wasn't the father they thought I was, but they forgave me, and I'm moving on. Like I said, I failed for 15 years, but I can't anymore. You are a strong person, but fighting addiction takes more than strength. We'll be here to help; you have to do the work.

[steve1220]

hi Shoron well it about 1 day and a half !!! isn't it funny when your going through this you count your day in minuits i'll make it through this i know just tired of going through the cycles

zona steve

[steve1220]

thanks Kyle i'm not saying i Want to check out !! i've been through this SOOOO many times before  and done all the other OPTIONS !! all i was sayin if my god took me back home i wouldn't ***** about it... i'm 60yrs old and everybody i knew is about all gone

[kyle505]

Steve...I suggest that you stop feeling sorry for yourself - talking about God should take you back home - come on! Look, you kicked a frigging 5 year addiction - and Oxys are very hard to get off of. Clean for over 100 days! That shows me that you are one in a million, and you should be proud of what you've done. So the doc put you back on the pills, and you're at it again. Welcome to the club - I failed for 15 years. But now I'm bumping up against 9 months clean - it can be done.
Tell your doc that you want to stop. Tell him/her that you are an addict, or at least an abuser, and should be red flagged as such. Ask about alternative meds that may help. You have a bunch of options - checking out is not one of them. Now cut the drama and get to work.

[Brightfutureahead]

You are back here posting so that's saying something ... "someone who doesn't make mistakes never makes anything." tell us some more...how many days, what dosage?

[Sharon0255]

You're not alone what day are you on?